Hi I live in the middle of no where Oregon, Im a 23 year old security guard and I am a virgin. In high school I didn't have much interest in girls for anything but friends and one or two as a fantasy for my masterbatory aid.
My friends say that they envy me because I can talk to a girl and befriend her. I realized part of the issue is I just don't know how to escalate it and often find myself trapped in the friend zone because Im partly afraid to do anything with out them taking the lead first. Ive had 2 female friends who I almost started something with but I am usually a strong silent type (its not that im shy, I just don't have anything to talk about and pritty much hate talking anyway because everytime I do someone interupts me so they can hear their own voice) and 1 girlfriend who lasted a month before she ran off with some dueche bag she worked with. We remained friends and phone sex buddies for a while but then she lost alittle bit of interest because now hes giving her what she wants we are still friends though. There was a while that I thought how could he chose him over me, hes not good looking, hes nothing that I am, and in all honesty she dropped about 3 or 4 levels just by making that decision. that is what finally drove me into your guys way of thinking, id concidered getting into it when mystery first started the show but I am now completely ready.
As for as my studying so far, I have read a book on flirting writen by some woman that was complete junk, then mysteries 2 books, styles book "the game" and a couple others. Ive also started watching what I can of some of Ross Jeffries videos, Hypnotica's and Steve P's videos, and have a bunch of random other emails being sent to me.