Greetings friends, I am new to this whole scene and I thought before posting in other threads and forums I'd drop you all a line and let you know a little bit about myself and why I decided to get involved.
So, basically I was in a relationship with someone from the age of 14-20. I wasn't exactly a smooth talker before we got into the relationship but I could approach and talk to girls. Anyway a long and clichèd breakup occured (she broke up with me, I didn't see it coming) and my confidence was completely destroyed. It took me 6 months after the break-up to even consider getting with another girl, and when I made the desicion I had no luck at all.
I was so scared of girls that at one time I literally ran away from a HB who wanted to kiss me. I waited untill she turned around and I ran away to have a cig.
About a year and a half ago I was sick of not being able to talk to girls, and I was sick of girls not even giving me a second glance. Something inside me seemed to snap and I decided to change my life. The first party of this was to rebuild my confidence. I started dressing nicely and I started lifting in the gym. Now at 22 1/2 I can modestly say I'm not bad looking, I dress well, my hair is styled nice and in a modern way, and (my most proud thing of all) I have a good body. I look muscley through long sleeved shirts and I complimented alot about how "buff" I look by strangers. It was around the time I put on serious mass that I realised girls where looking at me.
For the first time in 2 and a half years I am happy again, I finally have some confidence.
When I'm on a night out with friends now I get approached by at least 3 girls ranging from 6's-8's. The problem I have though is that I can talk to 1's-5's but any female above a 6 just freaks me out, I stop being able to talk coherently and freeze up. An example of this is 3 nights ago I was on a night out drinking and my best friend's g/f introduced me to a HB...easily a 9/10. I just said "Hi, you okay?" to her the entire night. Every time she talked to me i'd give her a smile and a one word response and that was it. At one point a friend came up to me and said "she's said she's interested in you, why don't you talk to her". I couldn't bring myself to do it.
This was the final straw anyway, I got home that night and thought to myself "I could be with her now and not sitting alone watching family guy". And thats how I found this forum.
Sorry for the wall of text, but I hope it lets you know a little about me and why i'm here.