hi im elgordo, im now 19 years old, 118 kilos and have striae, a candiadis infection and have difficulty keeping my concentration for longer than 5 minutes (at best). well i read the game and just bought mystery method. but my carreer is not very impressive. i feel like talking to women at the moment is not in my interest because they dont see me as a mating partner now since im so well fat and if we would get intimate i would feel freaky because of the striae and infection.

lately developed suicidal thoughts and am searching for SPAM of my add (to increase attention span and to help planning so i can stick to my plans when i make them to improve myself which usually i make nice plans but dont stick to since i have no discipline) but there's a waiting list of 5 weeks and now im keeping myself from jumping of tall structures with blow and booze lonely as a rock, i dont like to see my friends see me as so dont go out much. usually just jack off on my room whilst watching some nice porn

i am playing game online though. usually via anonymous online chatsites i pick up women there, and get email adresses of nice women (7's, 8's occasionally higher, the lower ones i ignore) but well they mostly live far away so i wont visit, and because usually talk in english my game in english is nice but since im from a small town in netherlands, well trying to pick up dutch girls in english is pretty silly. im afraid to approach women in real life because im fat, and think women are not attracted to me anyway so it would be awkward for both of us if i would try. now my plan is to clear of the infection, then exercise till im about 90 kilos and then go to college in the united states.

but untill then what should i do to improve my game? should i already start going out there or is it useless unless i look more appropriate?

p.s. thank you for reading the entire text, alot of it is too much information so ill be back to edit it at another time to make it more appropriate but its now 7 am and havent slept)

your not getting anything from online game cos your not meeting them. go out and meet people.

u need to get rid of the infection first. your talking to women, you have an infection in your mouth!!!!!!!! this should be obvious.