| Hello everyone
WARNING! Incoming a wall of text!!!
I am: 26, Asian, London, single and has an one-itis since Feb this year that I cant get over with. Please understand that English is not my first language plus I am a terrible writer. It is a terrible cocktail.
Here is my story. One year ago me and my friend went to Barcelona. He brought a book with him to kill his time in the air, that book's title is "The Game". He said: "Hey man! This is the best book ever. And this guy Neil Strauss is a bloody legend. Its about picking up women. Women like Paris Hilton and Britney." Wow! I was really interested and was thinking about buying this book. Later on I realised he knew about this book for more than 3 years, he just never mentioned to me, maybe he was embarrassed. So there I was, sitting in front of my pc on Amazon.co.uk ready to order. But it never happened only because I was thinking too much. As someone said 'if you think and keep thinking, nothing is going to happen. If you act, at least something will happen." In the end and not before 07 May 2010 I bought it and flipped the very first page in London Stansted Airport beofre boarding my flight to Dublin. And this very same friend was travelling with me again. My life was changed ever since.
Somehow I wished he shouldn't have recommended this book to me. On the other side of the mirror I wished I should get my hands on it when it was released.
I have never been a player, I have no game, zero. That didn't mean I never met any chicks. Thanks to god and Jesus and my mother that I am relatively okay looking, at least as an Asian, not too tall nor too short. Sometimes I wonder if my parents really are my parents. Because my father is definitely not a good looking dude. I was always being played. All the women I have been with was the ones who chose me. I had no choice. For me it was either she or no one. I tell you guys, this sucks big time! You dudes out there might think that I least got some punanies served on my table while you worked your ass out and received none. You might believe its great and I was full of luck and blessed by the angels. It doesn't work like this. Now that I look back I was just a chess pawn, merely a brick, a toy, a whore or a tool. I thought I was lucky and good but I was wrong. I made the girls proud so they could brag about themselves among their friends that they met a guy and blablabla... I made them as a player. Should I have the freedom to pick I would have taken the girl's hottest friend. It was I who was the victim. Till this day I have never closed a woman I really liked or loved or drooled upon. Clearly this is a sign of lacking of confidence and skills. Now it is time to change.
To go all the way back, I met my nr1 one-iti when I was 7. I believe she was 7 too. Somehow out of nothing I started to like her.. before meeting nr1 I hated girls, they were screaming, annoying and stupid. That was just their nature. Nothing really happened between me and her except holding hands, we had to hold hands anyway as we were outside the class room when teachers lined us up. It was an obligation. But it felt magical and some unknown feeling was crippling and brooding inside my body and I didn't have the slightest idea what it was. Unfortunately I had to leave the school and moved to Europe and there I met my nr2 one-iti.
nr2 was annoying as any chicks in the high school. She was 12, same age as I and she was hunted and chased by the alphas and AFCs and my best friends of the school. I never felt anything except annoyance towards her until one day my brain clicked. However she was hot and popular. I had no chance and nor I was given until I was 15. Somehow and somewhere I attracted her unintentionally. She came to me and gave me at least 50 IOIs but I didn't know how to react and I felt helpless. I backed off and start being stupid. It blew it completely. Off to college, nr3 one-iti.
13th Aug 2001. I shouldn't have looked back when I took the damn escalator. There she was, a mind blowing HB100 and she did blow my mind, several times in fact, or rather every time I was looking at her. Thanks to lord and his angels and guardians. We went to the same class. I came to school every single day just to see her. And believe me my school attendance was 100%. Can you imagine that? After one year she left the school and as you can probably picture my following school attendance recoard. Anyhow during that year I had some good conversation, we built a good rapport but I really never showed my interest. So during the summer-break I told her how I insanely love her like out of the blue. She backed off and rejected me. I stared at her and went into my thoughts. Surprisingly I wasn't even hurt, I felt relieved, I felt free and I was PROUD that I did it. Even though it was done very unprofessionally but it was done. I had a result. For me it was "The Great Leap Forward".
When this magical feeling is around and you automatically get attracted by a woman, you can't stop this feeling and you can't control it. "Attraction is not a choice" - David D. This feeling can appear at any moment and it appeared again back in Feb this year. Nr4, I met her in 2004 while visiting my fiancée. Oh yeah I was engaged when I was 22 but she wasn't any of my one-itis. What a fucked up life I have. Now nr4 is still hanging back of my head and I am trying so hard to get rid of her ghostly touch. So as Style and other PUAs said: Go and sarge with as many women as you can. Even it didn't work on Mystery it might work for me.
This moment I am still on page 412 'The Game' And it has given me enough confidence just to go into the 'field' and approach.
Today, I will make a commitment. I want to be a pro PUA. Not only I will be able to sleep with thousands of HBs and also to become more competent socializing myself among people in general. To improve my own personality and others. Also I strongly believe that once I have a thing with the ladies I will be able to make new male friends. They will provide a great deal of connections into jobs, events, celebs, and other stuffs that makes my life easier and funnier.
But most importantly I just want to be with my one-iti and live happily ever after.
- NS
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