| Ok so here is how my story goes…
I am now 19 and I am originally from Seattle. When I was 3 years old my family moved to Mexico. I lived there for eight years and had many friends. However, when I was 11 I moved back to the Seattle and I experienced a HUGE culture shock. Apart from being American and not being able to speak English, I found that I could not relate to people here in the Seattle area. During middle school, I had a rough start, trying to learn my own language and trying to “fit in”. Eventually though, I became very outgoing and made many friends. I could talk to anyone no problem and in my final year at that school I got my first girlfriend. I never Fclosed.
Then, high school came along and its like a switch just went off. I could not talk to anyone, relate, hold conversations or even approach any girls whatsoever. The friends I had made in the past, suddenly started to follow everyone along in the typical high school “group of friends” bullshit, and that excluded old friends like myself. Nonetheless, I was back at where I started when I first came back from Mexico, except with the language stuff.
Now, I am in college and I have about two people that I actually consider real friends and many acquaintances. I feel that I fail to make connections with people, which as a result is hurt my chances to form relationships with other people, especially women.
When I am invited to parties, I am the guy who is usually in the background holding a drink. Sometimes though, something in my mind sparks and I can be the most outgoing person at the party. Most of the time though, I feel that I am socially awkward and my mind goes blank on what to do or say in social situations.
I do not consider myself ugly. I have been told be random people in the street that I am good looking. The thing is I am not able to make this asset an advantage. Girls are shy to approach. Recently, I have been approaching as many girls as I can which I feel has made me better at speaking to women. Sometimes though, there are these circumstances where my mind just goes blank and I lose my outgoing edge. And I get lost!
My goal by joining this forum and practicing its ideas is to improve my social relations with people and also to become as affluent with women as I can. Also, it would also be awesome if I finally went all the way with a girl (I never have before).
Well this is a part of me. Now its time to work hard to change things!
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