Hey, what's up community?


How I got here:

I discovered Neil Strauss, 'The Game', and the community about 8 months ago. About a year before that I saw RJ's 'Fear into Charisma' video and was pretty skeptical. Especially because magnolia made fun of it. Anyway, after reading 'The Game', I was really pumped and started down the PUA path with zeal. I've studied mystery, RJ, DYD, and some of RSD. So much info! Can't remember it all...

Why I got here:

I don't want to settle.

Where I'm coming from:

In grade school I was one of the most popular kids. I always did what I wanted and didn't care what anybody thought (I lost this for a while but, have regained this youthful spirit with help from the community). The most sought-after girl in my class liked me and became my girl-friend (in title). However, nothing physical ever happened cuz I was too chicken.

Throughout high-school my only interactions with girls would be random drunk make-outs. Or, long-ass supplications periods that would lead to LJBF. However, during the summer I would have fun with girls at summer camp. Once I became I counselor, I met a girl who I really liked. She really liked me too and we spent the whole summer together. I got my first blow-job. I could have fucked her but pussed-out and this total asshole guy did instead. Shit, I really hate writing about this.

After high-school I went into engineering (I decision I would not recommend to anyone (playboy models don't marry accountants)). During university I was still a supplicater. I fell 'in-love' with a girl from my class who looked like my camp gf. This was a huge mistake and I lived in pain for so long (we never hooked-up!). Retrospectively, it seems like I punished myself emotionally for shits and giggles. I really wish I had had better role models and gotten a perfect 'birds-and-the-bees' lesson from someone. Or, I've heard that people with addictive personalities have a hard time letting go of ex's. If the latter is the case then, I better not try heroine! lol. Anyway, after some time of burying myself in books, this cute girl developed a crush on me and I finally lost my v-card at 22.

After Uni, I went to India and did lots of drugs and prostitutes and like got all spaced-out and crazy and bitter at North-American culture (especially, the way the media has programmed us. My parents watch so much TV!) . This did not help my social skills once I returned. Then I enrolled and dropped out of a masters in engineering (India likes education and I was inspired to learn more but, I was learning the wrong thing!). Then I earned a level 60 elemental troll shaman (fuck that shit!). Then I decided to move from my home town in eastern Canada to Calgary in western Canada to look for an engineering job/ski the Rockies. Now that I'm in Calgary I have no friends at all. I solo sarge. I'm 26 years old.

My Current Game Level (Looking for some help here):

I mostly go out at night. 3 nights a week. I want to go more. I don't mind solo-sarging if I can get motivated enough to go. Actually I like it! I've got some canned lines for the inevitable question "Who'd you come here with?/Where are your friends?":

"I'm adventurous, I like to go out alone."
"My friends went home, I stayed for more drinks"
pointing somewhere away in a busy club "they're over there somewhere"
etc.

When I'm solo-sarging at bars and clubs I try to open almost every all-girl set and some smaller mixed sets with more girls than guys in them. Also, I drink...that's probably is why my approach anxiety isn't an issue...I've been using C n F (got punched in the throat once!) and some canned indirect stuff. Also, I've had some success with David D's "Hey, what's up?" Some other routines I use are based on info I snagged from some of David D's recommended readings. For example, from the book 'Sperm Wars', I developed this routine; "Fast-fact: the contemporary world-record for the female who birthed the most babies is 69 (Girl Reaction here). And the record for a man is 888!" I think this is cool cuz It's talking about sex but, I also think discussing these heady books might be boring to girls and too logical (especially when I want to communicate emotionally!). I really like science, which is shit for seduction.

If I get into comfort building, I usually cube them/palmistry or both. I'd wish I could build comfort in a less cheesy manner. But, I guess girls like stupid-shit like astrology and shit. Sometimes I forget to shut-off the neg-ing and then I'm an asshole according to them. If all goes well, I'll do some kissing and more comfort building ("where are you from etc."). One problem I have is that, when I'm transitioning from C3 to S1 or from S1 to S2, I get so fucking eager to fuck this bitch's brains out that she'll get freaked out and give me lots of LMR. I think I send off a lot of neediness at this stage of the game. One time I busted out everything I could think of all in a row and it was ridiculous. We were making out in the lobby of my apartment building and she wasn't willing to come up. So, I was like "heyIwanttoshowyousomefunnycoolvideosandmypetrockandthiscoolT-shirtandtheviewfrommybalcony etc!" lol. Maybe I'm making a mistake earlier on in the seduction?

One awesome time I got laid was when I didn't give a shit whether this girl wanted to fuck me or not. Probably cuz she was like a 6.5...But, that was 3 months ago! How can I not give a shit about fucking 7.5s and above? That's exactly the shit I care about!

About a month ago I signed up for an RSD bootcamp. It's next weekend. The problem here is that, since I signed up, I've almost completely reverted to AFC. My logic has been "whats the point in further humiliation when the bootcamp will fix everything?" I should be practicing...but I'm locked away in video-game/beer-weed-porno land. That brings me to another problem...porno addiction. The sexiest porn is free to my apartment at the push of a button (via internet). How can I break this habbit? When I lose my male essence (i.e. ejaculate), I use that as an excuse not to sarge. I rationalize that my inner-game will be off. What's the point in sarging if I know it's not going to work? I've considered installing a porno-blocking program like 'Net-Nanny'. But, I don't want to block artistic stuff that has nudity and like funny videos of people getting hurt. Is there a program that only blocks the stuff that is definitely porn? Or maybe I'll get a pair of gloves with spikes on the palms....or hypnotherapy? Another reason I want to quit porn is because I saw this documentary that says your brain will re-wire itself so that you only get aroused to porn and not sex in real-life! That would suck!

Problems I know I have:

Drinking.

Pussing-out during day-game.

Not Kino-Escalating enough. Not Kino-ing in a calibrated manner

Being needy. Leaning in.

Too much cocky and funny. Too much neg (Is C n F and neg equal?).

I'm good-looking so I think I need really tight game....? Don't want the girls to think I'm a player (in a bad way).

Gaining pickup knowledge about advanced problems (like threesome etc.) when I should be spending my time sarging.

Inner-Game problem: Bitterness against women. They never have to be lonely or work for material possessions (if they're really hot). I know they can sense when I feel bitter. I want them to know I love them! AHHHHH!

Where I'd like my game to be:

Short Term Goal: Sew my Wild-Oats. Get a bunch or 1 nighters. Nail some crazy-ass-dumb blond-chicks. And, brunettes with cute brown eyes. Get wicked at day-game.

Long Term Goals: MLTRs (3 or 4(asian, blond, redhead, black/indian)), Lots of group sex where my girls are having huge squirting orgasms.

then I'd never have to go to stupid fucking bars/nightclubs ever again.

Closing Comments:

If anyone was board enough to read this whole thing, then please send any kind or reply you can think of.

I wrote so much mostly for myself (to get my thoughts organized).

Thanks for reading, hail to Sargie, and good luck everyone!

Krondo