| Fellow Bros,
Greetings from the bay.
I am Yang Li, 22 years old, originally a Mainland China native. I immigrated here when I was 8 and have been growing up quite happily in almost every area of my life except women.
Ever since puberty, my attraction has been toward white women, not at first but as I gradually came into my form, it became almost an obsession to be with white women for me. The older I grew, the more Anti-Asian I became, not just toward Asian women but our race as a whole. I never tried figuring out why this is. I think it may be due to the fact that I grew up in a predominately white area in upstate New York (2 asians in my whole school of 1,000). Starting college, I heard from just about everyone that life would fun and sex easy to get. It was anything but easy for me. I'd make a ton of friends but every time I tried escalating, tremendous anxiety and fear overcame me that I backed down often on my own, pathetic I know. It wasn't until my sophmore year in college that I lost my virginity and it was AWESOME. It wasn't until a year later did I actually date my first girlfriend, who happened to be white. We went out for a year, but things didn't work out. I knew it was related to my overall attitude towards women, there were many mistakes I made that I am sure contributed to the breakup. It was after the breakup that I endeavored to never let someone else be in control my future.
So, that led me to JT and the ABC's of Attraction.
I attended the June 5th-8th bootcamp. Attending this bootcamp was absolutely awesome. I've never met a more geniune and open group of guys sharing something that can be really embarrasing. So for that, I thank all of you that attended.
I learned that I wasn't doing too many things wrong. What could be my biggest mistakes were that I wasn't very direct, I lacked strong trust in my own sexual instincts and that I probably could do a great deal more with what I got.
I don't think I've ever been called a asexual, virgin before, but thanks to JT for calling me out. I look at it as something of a wake-up call.
I am looking forward to meeting you all here, hopefully many Bay Area ppls and share with you my growth.
Yang
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