IVE BEEN in the game for 3 years. Im 23 and live with my parents.have few friends. Had a good relationship post n-eways

I need ones advice I need to SORT MY FUCKING LIFE OUT

I was abused sexually multiple times and an early age by a guy I trusted.

Im at a community college, because I want to become a therapist.
Recovery from sexual abuse is a lifelong process and is very hard and very fucking lonely.

N-EWAYS Im seeing a support group.
Stopped the drugs and alcohol.

Anyway, here's the deal Ive been in te game for a while but what Im realizing is that I just want healthy friends who will be there for me
Healthy relationships with someone.

Im at rock bottom but the only way to go is up. Om learning to deal with my emotions.

Ive been bullied most of my life until I was 23 in the Army reserves.
Ive been manipulated alot. Ive been rejected and rejected.

o.k. anyway
I started in the game to be a cool guy problem was I got sucked way into it.

Now Im here 23. Do not want to fuck up anymore but Im tired of being lonely.



Anyway im sober and Im looking for good people who will accept me for who I am and who will help me in the committment to life that I have.
Im working on setting boundaries and not letting people manipulate me

bullshit aside dude I need to sort my fucking life out

im at a community college, Im in a mens group I work ok.

i stopped hanging out with loser friends im taking two courses at a community college. think I want to be a therapist. Ne ways I know the work must be done internally. Buy now I realize one must takeaction


I have this committment to this drive to really go out there and be somebody be noticed live life to the fullest. but be smart first.
Prob is I have no friends im really lonely and needy right now and afraid


im tired of being a fucking victim



I dont know dude im seriously dude I need help and Im getting it

frigid/Alex is a friend of mine in real life, guys. Feel free to pitch in and help in any way you guys can.

How is your men's group helping you in being more assertive specifically?

A book that took me from sleeping away many hours of life not able to focus in on what's important to succeeding is The Now Habit by Neil Fiore. It's a book on procrastination that helped me tremendously. Having been seriously emotionally abused as a child, I can relate. I'm 36 and feel like I just started moving on from it. You are incredibly brave for taking it on like this instead of just closing off and nose diving. The anger and rage is real. Don't be afraid to scream and cry you fucking eyes out. Those are real emotions that you have to feel. I can tell that you're going to make it even if you don't think you will. You're doing the exact right thing.

ya Ive had problems holding down a job for a while due to concentration, the biggest thing for me right now is the anxety I guess so Im starting to meditate.

Chief in my mens group we do exercises in where we pair up and one says negative things about the other and as soon as we start feeling the insult we tell them to stop and say ''thats about you not me''