Hey There, Internet.

This is the first time I have ever blogged anything, ever. Period. But on with the show.

I am 21 going into my Senior Year of College at a UC Campus in the Southern California area. I am a pretty quiet guy. Your stereotypical AFC who looks at women and looks away when they stare back. I am nervous at parties and can't start conversations if I were held at gun point. My first college party, I didn't talk to anyone for 2 hours and instead drank myself sick drunk and threw up in the bathroom.

Throughout most of my life, I have been completely clueless about girls. My frist introduction to girls was through a my Dad's friend and his daughter who, for some reason, liked me as a kid. We grew up together but the relationship with her was just the beginning of the confusion. In High School, I only successfully kissed ONE girl (Ok Ok, and I felt her up a bit, too.)

Now, I am in college. During my stay here I have slept with a WHOPPING TOTAL of 2 women. One girl the beginning of my Sophmore Year and my now Ex-Girlfriend of just under 2 years right after the first girl.

A big reason why I am starting the study of Pick-Up is because I feel I have lost an incredible amount of my youth not knowing what the hell to do. The last 2 years with my Ex has shown me that there can be a good side and a bad side to women (something many people need to get under their belt before they can successfully progress in their understanding, as well.)

The relationship, my first one I might add, for the past 2 years has consisted of the following:

- 6 Break-Ups (2 Her, 4 Me)
- A Billion PMS Episodes
- Incredible lack of communication
- Racist, Single-Minded Family (Hers) Unable to Accept a white dude dating their Asian daughter
- The Pill (and the emotional rollercoaster that followed)
- Whininess (Hers)
- Incredible Neediness (Hers)
- Humorlessness (Hers)
- Bipolar Disorder (Hers)
- Chronic Depression (Hers)
- Psychological Counseling (Hers)
- 2 Pregnancy Scares (Definately Hers)
- And... to top it all off... 1 Totally Baseless Sexual Harassment complaint after our Final Break-Up last month

The list really could be 10x larger, but for ease of reading, you get the idea. I have been through a hellish relationship. It had its highs, and I loved them for what they were, but BOY did it have its lows. But now I am making a change for the better.

I have been reading various PUA sources (ebooks, internet videos, forums, etc) for about the last month or so. It has really been opening my eyes into the world of attraction and how it can lead to a better understanding of women in general. It has also allowed me to see WHY it was that my previous encounters with women actually happened, allowing me to peice together those puzzles that were for so long held as miracle encounters.

My overall goals by the end of this year are:
- Lose 35 lbs (I weigh 195 lbs as of Sept 1st w/ my goal weight at 160 lbs by just "sometime" in December) while putting on muscle. (Health/Inner Game)
- Demolish my AA, work on my game from Opening to Closing.
- Be able to #-Close most sets I am able to open.
- Have the ability to make it to a K-Close within the next month.
- Have AT LEAST 1 F-Close within the next 1.5 months.

I feel that setting my goals realistically and at a pace that I feel I can handle promotes an active and positive involvement in this journey from myself. It also enables me to EXCEED MY EXPECTATIONS should I be able to perform better than what I have listed above.

I hope you all enjoy the chronicling of my journey and wish to hear from you guys be it with help, encouragement, or even your own stories.

See You Soon,
HighStakes

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