Hello.
I have been lurking on this forum for some time now. From this I have not just improved my game but life in general. I want to thank the many contributors for providing their experience and knowledge. It has truly enriched my life. Like many others I was first introduced to the community by reading “The Game.” This however was not my first exposure pick-up and game. I have had several figures in my life that provided examples of what's known here as a Pick-up Artist. These people have greatly influenced me and how I approach my game. I subscribe to the teachings of inner-game. I am devoted to having a dissolved ego and feel that true game comes from constant self improvement. This, I feel, is the highest level of pick-up. I find myself in transition for my personal and professional life with much to figure out. So I'm starting my own journal on how I've come to be and where I plan to go.

I consider myself a 26 year old rAFC. I have never been an extreme outsider with women. Up to this point I have achieved moderate success in relationships. In comfortable settings like work and school I could approach a girl and be successful, to some degree, in achieving my objective. Weather that being a lay or otherwise. I have never held true command of social interactions however. I always find myself unable to attract all the women I want. After several failed LTRs and being a child of a failed marriage I have set out to discover exactly what goes wrong. It turns out quite a lot goes wrong.

I attended a large state university for my undergrad and am currently attending grad school. With my professional horizon expanding I would be incomplete without pushing the boundaries of my social horizon. In school we are taught everything needed to complete a tasks. Add these numbers, speak this language for example. But we are expected to figure out the rules of social interaction on our own. For most of us, including myself, this is accomplished quite poorly. This is why I am drawn to the PUA community.

Still being a student I am not looking to settle down as far as females are concerned. And marriage? Ha, marriage?! That's like taking a trip to mars and I'm still rubbing two sticks together. I'm not interested in marriage. I think it's a false institution. I'm not saying some people aren't better off being married. Indeed some people are very happy in their marriage but that's not for me. What I am looking for, I think, is a multiple long term relationships (mLTR) situation. I have made progress towards this goal.

Until recently(the past year) I have not been pushing myself to improve my game. I was an AFC taking what ever fell into my lap. But that is no more. Currently, with my work load, I am unable to read everybody's field reports. I appreciate your advice and encouragement. If you point me to your postings I would be glad to read it and provide input of my own. What will follow is notable milestone in my game and life.

What's the best section to post my journal in? I will try to avoid a lengthy brag report. Most of it will be how I apply what I've learned and questions about sticking points.