Hi,
i am spagbol1989. i joined this forum because i have never been on a date before, i have never really even come close. i thought i would try to change things. currently, i am doing a masters in sheffield.

i am half-white and half-asian. i am half-british. i didn't grow up in uk, i lived here and there, before my family settled back in uk when i began my undergrad. i did very well academically in school, and i was very athletic, but i went to small schools where teachers looked after me. i have a lot of problems with shyness, i can't make eye-contact with people, even though i did well in school i had no friends, i was a loner, and girls always rejected me. beginning my undergrad was tough, i had no friends again, i felt so lonely, i fell into a depression and put on a lot of weight- i am not very obese. after graduating, i was doing this and that, before beginning my masters this year. unfortunately depression is still with me, but i am coping well with the academics.

right now i am quite insecure about my weight. the other thing is, as mentioned i am bi-racial. i hope it is ok for me to say this, if i make a mistake in saying it forgive me- but i have always on the physical been mainly attracted to white girls. of course, for love, you try to look past the physical and find a deeper connection. but it would be great to meet some white girls. my friends in university are mainly the male asian international students- who i love, they are great, but as a result i don't know many white girls. i am happy to date other ethnicities, but i have mainly been physically attracted to white girls and it would be great to have an experience with them.

so, i guess i joined this forum to improve my social skills, learn ways- i don't know, i want to just talk to girls on the street, around the university, but i can't do it. i have started to read mystery method, and neil strauss' 'the game', both seem great books so far, i haven't put them into practice yet. if i can achieve 4-5 dates with 4-5 women i am physically attracted too by the end of the year, i would be thrilled!

so that is my story, apologies if i have written too long. i look forward to reading all your posts etc., and to join your community, thank you for having me