Hello everyone!

All my life I've been extremely shy and have had a fear of rejection (from most people) but especially from girls. I've really only had 1 girlfriend for about 18 months with whom I slept. Other than that I kissed 1 girl when I was 13 and another when I was 22 (I'm 24 now).

I am an attractive guy and get a lot of IOI's from girls but I just cannot act on it. I feel so weak and inadequate because of this. My main goal is not to sleep with as many girls as possible, rather, it is to meet new people, make friends and meet potential girlfriends. I feel that I am successful in some aspects of life, but not with girls. I really feel that I am missing out on so much in life because of this. At times I feel confident and sexy but still, I cannot approach women. I am honest when I say I've approached one girl in my entire life, which was about a year ago. Even the girlfriend I had was because of a friend of mine introducing us to eachother.

I am a recovering drug addict and was addicted to coke and weed and alcohol (and did a shitload of LSD) for 5 years. I will be honest when I say that a part of the reason getting into drugs was the fact that I could not approach girls which made me feel so weak and shamefull and useless. I would see an attractive girl at University, obsess about her and the fact that I cannot talk to her, go home, feel sorry for myself, masturbate, feel even worse, get high and try to forget.

However I have overcome my addictions, been clean for almost two years now, finally I am happy and more fulfilled, but still, I NEED TO OVERCOME MY FEAR OF WOMEN. This is one of the last things I need to conquer and I believe I will discover a part of myself that I have been repressing for a very long time. Thanks for reading.