Hi Cups,
Welcome on board, I'm a newb to the site too but wanted to mention something from your OP.
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I am 18 years old, I've spent a lot of time reading material on pickup but still struggle in the field and get massive AA. I am always working on improving myself though, so I'll get better!
Great attitude, keep things in perspective and
know that you'll get better. Sorting yourself out first will save you a shitload of hassle in the future, lay the groundwork for the rest of your adventures by improving yourself and eliminating unhelpful mental patterns at this stage in your life.