| Hi everyone, I chose my name as Silent Shadow.
I'm 32 from Rome, Italy, and I came here just because I really need help.
I will tell my story, I hope someone can give me some advice, I hope this forum is for this: having benefits from others' experiences. It's a long story. Please someone have the patience to read it all.
I read some PUA techs before getting here on Neil Strauss' book and I surprisingly told me nearly every time I checked a new tech "I already do that".
So if I already do that, you could think I am full of women and I get laid every night... or that I'm just too much self confident on my PUA abilities. Neither of the two.
I simply don't like too much to get laid with too many different women. I mean... I know that's really strange and perhaps there are big faults in my education, but I can't really think to give myself to many people, just the ones really deserving that. So, I usually am engaged and I practice the game every now and then when engaged, just to see that I haven't lost the spark to the game. I usually succeed and then tell myself I shouldn't cheat on my mate, and leave the girl before even kissing her.
I am monogamist. I can live with that. My problem is I usually target young virgins, the ones who doesn't want to give up their virginity easy, and I focus on those preys. Then I usually become their first man (it happened various times)... and I get dumped after some years when I still am in love with that girl.
This is my problem. This is where I seek help. When I am single, I either seduce very engaged girls, or virgins looking for the special one. While the first ones are for fun (and I know that's not fair) second ones... I fall for them.
And this is what happened. I felt for this girl 3 years ago after seducing her. She was 18, virgin, and so in love with me. I actually were so scared because I was thinking only about the way to dump her before becoming effectly her very first man. That's because when we kissed the first time, I acknowledged that she was expecting me to be in a relationship with her since that.
So day passed and I yet didn't dump her... and I slowly felt in love.
We had sex. Her first time was during a romantic journey in a fantastic shaped bed. That was so romantic. We had wonderful times. We were really in love.
But things changed. And while I still was able to to seduce other girls, I felt like mine was getting far and far from me. I relaxed too much, I gained weight, I was not so charming any more. She was still nice to me, we hanged out like a very nice couple, all of our friends were really congratulating me. But in our bed, she was getting more and more unsatisfied. We stopped having sex because she didn't get any more wet and I made her scream in pain. She starting having reasons for avoiding that like "sorry I didn't tell you I didn't take my pill yesterday" or "sorry I'm too tired honey, can we do it another time" or "Sorry I love you but today I feel really stressed."
In the same time, she was beginning strange speaks about "You had a lot of women, I don't find comfortable with having just one man for all my life" and another guy appeared often next to her. Since I live 100 km far from her, I couldn't take her out every evening, and her friends did. And this guy was among those friends.
So, I believe this guy had easy way over me. I really had a lot of work and couldn't go out with her for a while. 20 days passed, while she was getting bad advices from her friends, and in the same time that guy called her out sometimes. Sometimes she refused for my sake. Sometimes she went out with his group.
I was dumped 5 days ago, and trust me, I already practiced and seduced two girls since that day, since I wasn't engaged any more I could release my spark... and still I need to lose back weight and get in shape, have an haircut, buy new dresses... you know. Yet, I succeeded.
But what I really want is my girlfriend back. I want to be as brilliant as I was when I seduced her. I know that I can be again, but it's really too early to come back at her, since she dumped me telling me she didn't love me any more. People who know her say maybe she is confused and she doesn't know what she speaks about. People caring about me told me that I had to expect it, we were 29 and 18, I was smooth, she was a nice girl but her hormones would have blown up sooner or later. And this guy perhaps succeded in the process.
I can't stand that, I've stolen many gf from people who really didn't deserve them, and now I got love of my life stolen... or maybe she won't end up with him, but I fear that's very likely.
If I come back now I will look needy and lose every chance. I already know that. I just have to wait. 90% this guy will have free way to finally fuck her, and she will like that since our last fuck was last year. And that would be the very end of our story, if it hasn't ended already.
Perhaps I'm totally wrong. Perhaps I should tell me that it's over, that they were 3 fabolous years and that I need to find the next one for more than just 3 years... but she marked my heart and I now feel guilty for having lost the keys to her heart. I thought I really had won her heart. I thought she was going to be in love with me forever. I just hope she got confused by having this guy around, and friends giving bad advices to her... but I yet don't know. I feel this strange sensation of being unsure, fragile, and it hurts. I know I can use my ways to seduce new women, but what I want now is HER back.
Are there any way to really get her back? Do you know them?
Because I know how to seduce a women, and I will tell you my secrets... but I yet don't know how to seduce again one you seduced and lost over the time.
Thanks for reading all of this it really means a lot to me.
Silent Shadow
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