Hello guys,

My name is Chris and im from Houston, TX. I am in the mortgage industry and enjoy martial arts, comics, video games, hanging out with good friends and meeting beautiful women.

I would like to start off by saying that I was born with what is known as a cleft lip which left me with a scar on my lip and a slightly cooked nose after it was repaired when I was a baby. When I was very small I was told I was still handsome but kids can be cruel at times so I was very insecure. As I got older there were actually girls that thought I was cute and would tell me so but to add to all this I was poor and couldnt dress well so you could imagine my early teens. I actually had more success as I got older with women because I assumed they wouldnt be interested in me. I just didnt care and I was the ultimate wingman. All my friends would ask me to hang out with them because I would talk to the women for them. Opened every set, even though I didnt know what a set was back then. My biggest problem was building attraction and I was completely oblivious to IOI's. As I got older I dated some girls and lost my virginity to a girl that didnt even speak english. She was a 4.5 at best but getting it out of they allowed me to believe I could do a little better. After that I eventually got in a LTR with this one girl and she cheated on me with here best freind when I was 18. Then it happened again with my next LTR. After that I decided I would just be a douche bag to all women and strangley I hooked up with a girl I really liked. Soon I fell in love but she became distant and I assumed she was cheating but I had no proof.

Fast forward a few years and a couple of two year droughts with no sex I hooked up with this supposedly easy girl where I used to work and ended up having a kid with her and had an off an on LTR with her. I think these failed relationships have put me through a lot of mental strain and I began drinking a lot trying to pick up women but failing miserably, causing a lot of problems in my life and relationships with friends and such. I got a dwi, got my car repo'ed and went into debt. My son and step daughter moved to another state which only screwed with my mental state even more. I was on probation for a year and was told not to drink so I completely quite drinking for a year and stopped hanging out with friends and going out to meet people. For almost two years since then I have been trying to find out what I need in life. And what needs to change. After all this time thinking about it and separating my self from all my friends and all the partying I realized I was lonely and watching way too much porn. I wanted to meet women. Better women then I have in the past and I want options.

I knew there had to be a way to meet women, even for a guy in my situation. On my bus ride to work, I would see couples holing hands on the bus, and even two bums on street holding hands sharing a bottle of cheap liquor. I knew broke douche bags that had girls and this really frustrated me. I remember looking at a TV show that I saw at a friends house a year or two ago called the Pick Up Artist and did a search online to find the videos. I eventually watched the whole first season and also found out about the book called "The Game". I literally just finished reading it and it blew my mind. I decided I want to change my attitude and place more value in myself instead of looking at what I dont have (car, money, house) and start looking at what I do have. I have been working frantically to hook up with old friends, after realizing the use of "pivots" and social status. I didnt realize at one point I had all of this but never used it to my advantage. I wont going into detail but I used a few things from the Mystery Method and some stuff from Style and some of it worked. Im working hard on my internal game because I think that is what is needed the most at this time but while I am trying to stay in a good state I realize how this affects everyone around me. I also realize I have some how lost the ability to approach any women like I did when I was younger. Some how I have developed approach anxiety, especially with really hot women.

I apologize for my long winded intro but I really needed to get this off my chest. Its nice to meet all of you.