I wanted a girlfriend because I thought having one would make my life worth living. Once I got a girl and was able to have as much sex as I wanted. My life would become wonderful. Then things didn't work out because I wasn't good enough for her. She left me. Shorty she was in a relationship with another guy from out of state. While the time we aren't together anymore. I was very depressed for awhile. I didn't want to do anything. My life wasn't worth living. I felt 3/4 of myself was gone. I was back in square one.

Still depress, I got back up on my feet. I started to do things on my own. I became more sophisticated, gain my confidence back, was able to take care of myself. Then I realize that I don't need to have a girlfriend to complete the image, to make my life worth living.

Several months later she wrote to me that she wanted to come back because she must of found out after all that blood, tears, and sweat I sacrificed I changed not being who I was the needy, desperate, lack of confidence type of guy. The light bulb turn on in my mind from that day on what girls need is a guy who has the alpha male qualities.