Now this is going to be a little long, but i feel i need to share it. A few things about me, I'm 18, at university and by condensing everything im about to say into one sentence, it would be that "Everyday, i feel like im on the top of the world now." If you have time, read it, but don't fret if you don't. This is just a personal reflection which im sharing spanning 10 years of my life.

So i grew up in an non-traditional asian household, but lived in an english/asian mixed cultured expat country called Hong Kong. We had just moved from Australia (My dad's work made us move alot, but Hong Kong is where i found my home) and being thrust in a new situation when i was 8, my once loud and talkative childhood became a very quiet and lonely one. I didn't make friends very well, I hated being put into group work for fear of being left alone, and i didn't go have fun to places like the beach or the swimming pool like all the other kids my age. I sought console in video games and television. I only had one or two friends and didnt really socialize. But to me at this time, i didnt feel sad. I felt that this was my life, i accepted it.

Then secondary school came. New experience, new world. Everyone would be like me, everyone would be new and i had a chance to change. But as with every secondary school, people were bullied for not being perfect. by the time i entered, i was chubby, glasses and wore over sized clothes. I was being wrecked with bullying for years. I felt shit, i hated everyone, i closed myself once more making one or two friends, unable to talk to the "Hot" girls and spent time in the computer rooms or library during lunch break. This was me for the next 2 years.

Year 9 came along, the summer just before term started, i felt like i wanted to change a little. I hated being bullied. So when term started, i tried making friends with the nicer of the "Cool group". It worked, i became friendly, we had similar interests but in the end, i still had the lowest status of the group because i was still being bullied. They went to events together but i never went with them. Everyone started having growth spurts, mine wasn't much of a big change (Im 5"5 currently) so that brought my spirits down. Anyways the year ended, a bit better than before but not by much. I felt as if this was going to go on forever.

Summer before year 11, My brother headed to university. Now my brother was similar to me growing up. Glasses introvert and everything. He wasn't chubby but he wasn't the most sociable person either. However i noticed towards the end of his time home, he started dressing more, went out alot more, tried talking to everyone a little more. I thought he just grew up and was no longer like me. I didn't realize what had happened to him. So as he went to university, we kept in contact and he was telling me all about wild university stories he was having. It sounded like fun, i couldn't wait for university so i could get out of this lonely hole.

Year 12, started doing a different course. New people, made many friends. Looking back, i realize that this is probably where it all started. This year was when i changed from who i was to who i am now. And as cliche as it all sounds, this was all because of a girl. Not using her real name, lets call her Amy. Amy was in most of my classes. She was loud, quirky, innocent yet naughty at the same time. She was flirty and my god i thought she was hot. I grew really interested in her and i thought to myself to balls up and actuelly get to know her and ask her out. I did. She said she liked being friends. Fuck. anyways, through out the year i still acted confidently around her and started becoming open to her to try and win her over (Little did i realize it was the wrong tactics and i was just digging myself in the friendzone pit). But anyways, i was introduced to drinking, i went out alot more, socialized alot more and really made myself proud that year.

Now the summer between year 12 and 13, my final year. I was kept thinking about Amy. I decided it was because i didn't look like the guys who all the girls were attracted to. So i went to the gym, gave up junk food and for 2 whole months. I was a machine. I lost so much weight i was developing abs. I was fit as fuck. But during that summer. I found it, the thing that would change my life. My brother was still at university, still having a blast and i walked into his room as if i missed him. I found on his bookshelf a book called "The Game". It had an interesting cartoon of "old Style" on the back and "New Style on the front. Now im going to be honest, i didn't pick it up because it seemed like something i wanted to read, i picked it up for the colourful cartoons on the cover. Anyways, i read it and was amazed. Is this really possible? Could i cheat the system. could i actuelly make girls want me? (At this age, i still hadn't even kissed a girl yet.) So i became heavily interested in it. I didnt join any pua forums or anything, i just read the book 3 times back to back.

Anyways summer ended and school started. Everyone said i changed. I was more confident, i held my self better and i lost alot of weight. I dressed in tighter clothing and less of that oversized stuff i had. I had a wardrobe change and i was being cocky. Not for some reason, my sudden change had caught my friends off guard. They were becoming more hostile because i was no longer the person they once knew. I hadnt changed that much but i did enough to notice something. My closest friends stuck with me but my good friends started withdrawing, stopped calling me to go out, really just started ignoring me. Is this what i wanted? If i changed, would people hate me? No. I just participated more on different events, i was heavily interested in media so i filmed lots of plays and events at school. I made new friends, people who liked me for who i was. Sure i still wasnt part of the cool group by this time, but it no longer mattered to me. The year went on, i kissed a girl, i sexed a girl i did everything which i should've done 3 years ago. The Game was a life changer.

Now summer came, we graduated high school, everyone was in ecstasy. There was a tradition at my school of going to Thailand's full moon party as a graduation trip. No teachers, not parents, no adults. Just recently graduated high school kids. We went, and of course i hooked up with alot more people. But then by the end, through drunken antics, one of my "Good" friends was getting jealous of dancing with his girlfriend and pretty much interacting with her during the holiday. Now, to me, i had no interest in her at all. I adored her because she was an awesome person, but i had no interest in her sexually. i just enjoyed her company as a friend. Anyways long story short, we had a party at our place and he got really drunk and decked me to the floor. Ouch. That fucking hurt. On the outside and the inside. Did my change cause this to happen? Anyways that pretty much sealed the end of our friendship. Not only that but when we got back, the other "good friends" of my group sided with him and i pretty much got excluded from everything. One of my best friends in the group, who ive been friends with ever since i came to Hong Kong, started to not talk with me anymore. He kind of just, stopped interacting with me unless he had to. That was depressing as fuck. This is the summer where i had my all time low. Im pretty sure i was suffering depression. I was alone, fell back into the video game playing, not outgoing person i once was all that time ago. I relapsed. I cried alot. I was sometimes woken up to phone calls of all my once friends having fun, being drunk and pretty much taunting me. I thought about suicide but i knew i would never do it because it never became THAT bad. Sure i was having a shit time, but just as when i was a kid, university in a different country appealed me more than anything ever. It would be a fresh start, new place, new friends, new everything. I decided if anything, this was the place to decide what to do about myself. I read alot of PUA, not extremely confident in the material anymore because of what i went through but i gave it another chance.

University. The day had come. Had all those stories been true? Is it the epitome of experimentation? Is it the second childhood where you had the capability to do anything and everything. In a word, Yes. So far i think university has been the best decision in my life. I went in strong, i wanted to have a dominant role in my group this time. These people didn't know who i was, and i have no interest in tell them what i used to be. Im here, i can decide who i want to be, and i want to be a guy who wants to have fun. Fuck bullying, that shit aint happening anymore. Were grown ups who just want to party. Anyways ive been with more women since uni, but as it turns out, i still haven't gained all the skills to be a womanizer. Now i met another girl here at uni. lets call her Sarah. Sarah was like Amy. She was smart, sexy but the quality i think i noticed which i enjoyed from both of them was Quirky. Obviously, life is not a fairy tale. I was a year younger than her and that i dont think that appealed to her. I asked her out, alot quicker this time than Amy, but i was still friendzoned. I still think about her today and what could have been, but rather than trying to win her over like i did with Amy. I thought to myself, fuck that and continued having fun. From uni, ive experimented with drugs, alcohol, and with my personality. I read a guide here about things to do at uni to dominate your campus. Be friends with everyone. Be a part of everything. And most importantly, never say no to an opportunity. The world started making sense. I no longer took my life so seriously. I discovered that problems are only problems if you think of them as that. I've been so much of a badass that ive been kicked out of my halls. But no, im not depressed, i dont even care. PUA has given me not only confidence in women, but me as a person. Remember the quote "Be the best person you can be". I say that the term "Best" can be subjective. The best person you can be is what you deem it. I think i have the capabilities to change the world. My ambition is to one day make big screen movies, be rich and have a third childhood in my 30s where i have tons of money as well. Im not saying i will end up being these things, but through confidence and pretty much being social, i believe in myself. Every time i wake up, i no longer think about my problems. I think about how amazing my life is right now and i have no regrets. Did something stupid last night? Learning experience. Ive had so many interesting and amazing experiences because i choose to be outgoing, i choose to have fun rather than sit in and sulk. So if you've read up to this point. Thank you for listening. I am a changed person. And all through an introduction of a culture.

PUA has changed my life. And in turn i'm going to make the best out of it. I want to be Tyler Durden. I want to be Adam Lyons. I want to be and currently am someone i think is awesome.

Thank you