Hey guys.

I just got out of a massive funk and realized that I want something better out of my life. It all started back when I was in college. My first real girlfriend was when I went to college and was also when I lost my virginity. This started a long line of girls I would call okay looking. They were all 5s and 6s. After some time I landed my first 8. I just acted disinterested and she practically dragged me into a relationship with her. I knew nothing about the game at the time so I chalked it up to luck and enjoyed my new girlfriend.

After 2 years I finally asked her to marry me. She said yes. I was over the moon. I had a beautiful fiance and everything was going so perfect there was no way this could go wrong. I was so in love that all I could do was think of her all the time. And then it all went to shit.

She cheated on me with some loser with braces who told her he was a mafia enforcer. The kid was 20 and scrawny and from some shit town in the Midwest. I was devastated. And then she wanted to talk. I thought that I was willing to let the relationship continue but what I got was everything was my fault. I could not believe what I was hearing. I treated her like gold and now she was telling me that her that this punk was a psychic who told her that I was a slaver in a past life. I told her that this was bullshit on such an epic scale that I did not want to speak to her again. She could have the 20 year old braces mouthed, psychic mafia enforcer. Fuck her and fuck him.

The problem was that I was also deeply in love with her. The sudden end of the relationship crushed me to my core. It would take me 5 years to get over her and I don't think I will ever get over the betrayal I still feel. But that was then. I want to learn how to be the guy who gets all the girls. I am sick of having only 4 girls to my score. I want to date the best. I want the girls I deserve. I have been the "nice guy" for too damn long. So I bought "The Game" by Neil Strauss and then I got another book and another. This is what I want in my life. I want to be the life of the party! I want to live!

Now there is one issue. Old habits die hard because while I was learning from the books I also developed a strong case of oneitis. I pursued her and I was shot down. LJBF zoned without mercy. Dammit guys, I need help. I need to know what I am trying to learn will get me the girls I want. I need to get over this girl. I need to master the art of getting any girl I want. What I don't want is to be a player. For now I am looking to have a good time but I have a final goal. To find a girl I can spend the rest of my life with.

Well, the journey of 1000 miles starts with a first step. I am here to learn and refine. Cheers guys!

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