Howdy
My name is..well i wish to stay anonymous, so maybe later on i shall reveal.

I'm going through a complicated situation with my LTR girlfriend, seeing as she is moving back to San Francisco, and we don't want ANOTHER year of long distance. I don't know what i'm going to do fellas, it's getting harder each day.

At first I was fine because i thought now would be the perfect opportunity to experience other ladies. I'm getting confused, i feel like i won't be able to live without her (over exaggeration). i mean she'll still be in my life..but i can't imagine her as just a friend.

there is some internal conflict, because, well a year ago i went to therapy. In therapy i was open to really digging deep within my psychological reasonings for my actions and patterns, and i discovered a thing called "family of origins". basically history repeats itself..and i don't want to end up like my lonely miserable father.

I know this is quite a long and misguided intro, but bear with me.

I know the necessary steps to moving forward in becoming an emotionally independent person, and part of that is not investing too many eggs in one basket..which i translate as experiencing life and getting laid.

I don't know though, i'm afraid that i won't be successful with women, and that my girlfriend is gonna get more action than i am and ultimately..i am going to be the loser