I created a new account for this, and can not post in the appropriate forum with out 20 posts


FriendZone out of a serious relationship over a year of communication and plans on moving in together, how do I recover she lives in another city? Help!

Hi, my hands are shaking as I type this. I just found out that I have been friend Zoned. This is not my normal account as I regularly post under another name.
The situation: I met a girl online through writing poetry and painting. We instantly fell for each other and have not missed a day without texting for a year. Things were great and we started planning to move in together after I graduated Uni. We both have our baggage. Mine, is that I lost my Girlfriend when I was 17 and since could not feel any type of love for another. Until her, she oscillated my heart something fierce.
On her end, she opened up that she was raped the past year and twice before. This hurt because the same thing happened to my mother when she was younger. The thing is after it happened to my Mother she became a drug addict and ended up leaving my family.
So when the relationship between the GF and I moved towards moving in, I started to back away and become distant. Anyways, I started to work through a lot of issues with my close Friends.
We started to communicate more and I wrote her a story today. Then a traumatic experience happened to her today. She found a man wandering in traffic crying, as he had just lost his wife and child during birth. She lead him out of traffic and comforted him on the side of the road, then drove him back to his family.
The event opened up our issues, and I explained what was happening with me over the last couple weeks. However she told me that 'she fell for me at the wrong time and that things have changed, but she can not bare living with out me and wants me to be apart of her life'. Also she said she is now dating somebody but it is not serious.
The thing is, I am coming to an end on my Visa in my country and need to decide if I should return home. I am not sure what to do, she lives in another city and I can not be there for her, as I am a poor college student who can not afford to visit.
I have studied the Game and PUA for the last five years and it has lead me across the world and to wonderful and amazing people. However all my skills I feel are useless now in the friendzone.
I understand that my weakness to commit earlier in the relationship might have ruined things.
What can I do to get out of the friendzone?