Hi guys,

I'm 26 years old have a cool job and have had a couple of girlfriends this far into my life. My last relationship was about 6 years and have been in one currently for almost 2. Things aren't going well there, but I'm not super down about it. I've always been somewhat aware of the cocky/funny thing, but it always takes time for me to be my natural self. Both girlfriends have been people I spent a lot of time with before getting with them, whether was working with them or knowing them through friends.

I've explored a forums a little before writing this and like a few other guys I've come across, I feel more comfortable in groups of close friends and with people I've come to know well. When I'm in these environments I'm funny, cocky and usually able to make women laugh and become attracted to me. However, I'm tired of being like this.

Even with a HB8 as a steady girlfriend, I find myself intimidated or shy or nervous with HBs that I don't know. I'm a decent looking guy, although I could be a little more fit, but that's not it. I don't think my looks play a role in my anxiety at all.

If I'm in a store or walking down the street I get nervous when I come across a single woman and super nervous around a set. Where I work there is a mall and high school close by so at lunch time I'm constantly running into Hot High School girls and even that makes me nervous...hell, they're kids and I just can't even face them.

It's not just chicks though. I'm nervous in asking for a raise from my bosses or telling them I disagree in how they want me to approach something with my staff sometimes. But other times I'm talkative, expressive and have great ideas.

There is some kind of confidence lacking and I'm hoping the game and community can help me overcome it. I love women, seriously everything about them...I just want to be near it all the time! But I also have anxiety and jealousy when it comes to my girlfriend...I don't want it. I want to be able to say ahh, fuck it; I can find someone else....

I know I have this inside of me...the ability to meet women and people in general and make them want to be around me all the time. I know it's in me...I just need to take the steps to bring it out. I'm hoping the community and books can help me get there. I started The Game last night and am about half way through.

To anyone who read this, thanks. I think this was my first step; just getting my feelings and thoughts out there...now hopefully, I can just let them blow away!

Looking forward to reading, trying things out and posting with you guys.