So, I am joe. I been actually practicing for a long time. This is my first introduction to this forum. Not sure where to begin.

I got a lot of limiting beliefs, insecurities, and self conscious about myself. I had okay times with girls but, since puberty, I been battling acne. After a decade, my skin is far from flawless, and less then perfect. Some imperfections, scarring, and permanent damage. Its brought a lot of self consciousness and even depression.

I have tried all sorts of diets, organics, spent $125/hr on a natural pathic doctor, all sorts of supplements, and no success long term. I resorted to a doctor, dermatologists, topicals having tried proactive, and all sorts of over the counter items. Topicals were a nightmare, It made things worse and was like putting peroxide or bleach your face. I did everything but accutane.

Well, I lost my sister and dad in a terrible accident. Worse, I took things out on them cause of depression, my skin, and game just has been horrible. I went from dating, a sex life, and social circle to nothing. Just alienated and lonely. It was just before new years and instructors Future and Tyler Durdan both gave me messages of encouragement. I went out on nye, number closed some girls after getting blown out all night and destroyed.

I freaked out and vented on another forum the other day. Today I got a number and fb contacts from multiple girls. I just get so hard up on myself and depressed despite everything I try. I can see my six pack but, I battle acne. It just isn't fair or makes no sense to me but shit genetics. I wish it was balding or over weight. These I could deal with. Well, I watched flawless natural and I never knew there was a instructor who was so confident and yet, battled acne/scarring. Tim gave me encouragement watching this, happy bday and k-close infield footage. I used some of what I learned and what i know, got a number and more contacts.

Just want inspiration and something more to believe in guys. Thanks. I promise to share my honest success and happiness with you guys. Thank you.

So, I am been watching the pick up artist on VH1 with Mystery. I been apart of the community for sometime but, I have always avoided the forums. I find I would like to learn from others then share. Since I lost my sister and dad, my game has gone to shit, and then, you add in acne it has made me self conscious.

Now, I don't want to sit back and just bitch or vent about my problems. Instead, I want inspiration, I want to believe in something, and become a better person for it.

Last year, a pua by the name of future posted me some advice. I also seen a video by a pua named Tyler Durdan that made a video speaking about getting stagnant and some people never returning or getting past it. It forced me to take action. I spent my new years by mself but, I went out, I got blown out all night, and before the night was over, I picked up a girl, I got a her number plus, number of some friends.

We hungout too. I had some other chick from last year flake. Turns out, she likes someone else (I prob didn't make a move soon enough). She is into some guy who likes heavy drugs and threatens to kill her all the time. I don't get the girls. Not my problem to worry about. Met a new chick last week, met more, got some fb contacts and a couple numbers. I am not where I want to be.

What I would like is inspiration, someone to role model and something to believe in guys. I imagine, not everyone is honest on the forums in what they say they are capable of doing. I make a pack and promise to you all. Everything I post here on this forum or any where will be honest. I will share my success, even the smallest things to the biggest ones and even my failures or learning experiences.

Thank you guys!

Back from the free tour. I learned a lot. I forgot to mention that, my favorite part of the jeffy free tour is Jeffy singing "party rock anthem." I still feel like I am putting up the good fight but, I am fighitn off from being forever alone. It really sucks. I am considering some cosmetic work, dermal fillers and possibly even laser SPAM. Laser scars me cause, I seen someone post a video of the consequences of laser, the long term risks, down time, and even scarring. There is an entire forum dedicated to ipl laster burns and scars. Fillers I hear is less side effects but, my genetics is poor, scars have followed, and well, its not cheap either. Hundreds of dollars, temporary results, and follow up SPAM are needed. I am scared. I want to live a normal life, I have given up so much but, i only gained little results.

It is crazy I still am depressed about my skin. I am still depressed about losing my sister and dad too. Life really has been awful and I wish I could trade places when I feel horrible. My mom is very upset and miserable or complaining a lot of the times. I love her but, I have no outlet. The only believe i have is my word to take care of her but, what happens when she is gone?

So, to start this new year off, I got a bit of numbers, some facebook contacts, some new adds. I just met a pretty girl online. Assuming, we are just friends but, I am open to possibilities. I am looking to continue to eat well, to keep a healthy balanced nutritious diet, and continue to get better at game. I shaved today since I looked awful with a alan beard. I am awaiting a new cosmetic appointment. Looking into fillers and quite possibily laser. I am realizing more and more that, nobody is perfect. During my cosmetic appointment, I seen these gorgeous girls piling in and out of the doctor's office. The desire to model or best their best self or perfect for some man or something was there. I guess everyone faces this self worth issue at times.