Tired of my fucking life. Was a happy kid that had everything, but last few months changed that, been through hell situations in life. I was doing well in school but cannot concentrate on anything. Hardly get any sleep so hardly feel like talking to anyone in rl.

I just turned 18. Never even kissed a girl. Funny thing is I have had girls throw themselves at me over the years. A girl ask me to bed. Always been a shy prick. Have friends but never built any close ones.

The beta guy in the background that says fuck all. Thats me. I have no energy about me and sound like the mortary fucker.

I can't keep going on like this any more got a place at uni for next year, need to change for then. Who knows I could be a real inspirational pua story.

Would really appreciate some guidance. I am willing to learn, but it will be so hard for me to take steps into being social like talking to random people, I can't even talk to people I know . I would really appreciate someone really experienced mentoring me or something because my life is a fucking mess right now.

Anyone knows about depression, feeling of worthlessness. It will be a real mission for me to become a true pua.

Okay. First of all. As low as you may feel dying is NOT the answer. If you are thinking about suicide, planning it, and beginning to give prized possessions away you are in a high risk situation. Call a suicide prevention hot-line IMMEDIATELY. 1-800-273-TALK. They have professionals there that can really help you. If you are just genuinely bummed out, then you have to ask yourself why? Has the game taken over your life? It does for a certain percentage of PUAs that get addicted to the rush of this world - no different then alcohol or drugs. If you have not figured out how to moderate your life, then you need to take a big step back and get centered.

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Atomicglow