I am all new to pickup.I have never picked up woman,the girls i had\have in my life has always picked up me.. I am lucky to be good looking,in shape and are always well groomed. But my self esteem and social skills is Sh1t.

It have happen many times that nice looking girls looks attracted and excited until i open my mouth and speaks..It is the same when speaking to boys actually(not the attraction part..lol.heh)
It now seems to be a cure to my illness:PUA books,videos forums have awesome understandable theories to learn.
I am a bit of a loner.So i wonder is it possible to practice pickup alone? I really want to learn how to go in to a club without looking like i am bored,scared looser with no friends, but just there to enjoy my self and make new friends.. But that is real hard when i have poor social skills combined with low self esteem. I really do not know where to begin?And i really do not know what to speak about to new people?

To be honest the last girlfriends i had(the last one was real hot btw,and i got the nickname Don.Juan from boys even though i did not have clue what i did to get here) was attracted when i was in a party mode and often in influence of cocaine in the weekends, but when i quit using and stopped partying the attraction slowly faded away..I got boring.I want that party mode part of my personality to come naturally without partying .But i really don`t know how :-S

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