I suppose there is an inherrent contradiction involved with the notion of somehow being "above" other average frustrated chumps, but this is how I see myself. I don't mean to imply that I am better, but in general I think I have had above average success with women, yet, by all means, I continue to frustrate myself. This has certainly been the case after reading "The Game" (which I bought out of curiosity at a second hand bookstore in Thailand). The knowledge gleened from the book seems to have evaporated somewhat during the past few years, and I am currently rereading it, which in turn brought me here.
Growing up, I thought I was good looking enough, but was so mortified around girls, that my game was absolutely nonexistant. I was lucky enough that eventually girls made themselves available to me, and this gradually coaxed me out of my shell - well, partially. However, I was so starved for female companionship, I would cling to relationships till well past their use for me and the girl involved. This continued till I was 25 (4 years ago). Since then I have not had a committed relationship, rather I have been committed to developing the confidence in my ability to attract women I had always desired.
I have definately developed some abilities I never imagined possible, but nonetheless, I constantly squander opportunities - like good looking girls coming up to talk to me, and losing interest rather quickly. I don't think it is because I am incapable of seducing me, I just make so many errors.
I was in college for 6 years, and slept with over 20 coeds during this time; this involved much overlap, which I did not hide, and girls usually did not mind - this is the bulk of my total score. In other words, girls who get to know me, who I can demonstrate value to over time in a controlled setting, who I can slowly seduce - I can get. I just can't attract a girl fast enough to consider myself any kind of PUA. Being finished with college - and returned to the Real World - I think its critical I stop being and AFC.
I hope someone reads this, and if you do, thank you, advice would be much appreciated!