Registered awhile ago on this site hoping to fix my oneitis and improve my self-confidence. I'm following through after being up late last night listening to the sirens and a chopper hover around my block at 3am while I watched one of those GGW adverts. I thought, "Fuck this, I can be one of those guys having a chill time and pulling in a girl instead of listening to this poor, ghetto, fucked up mess tonight like I do every night." It's not all about thought is it though? You actually have to follow through.

Oneitis is very stupid to get caught up in, but I haven't been able to avoid it for the past couple of years. That is until I read Neil Strauss's, The Game, a few months ago and had bouts of deeply entrenching myself in reading all about mPUA's and different PUA school of thoughts. Several things I would read hit me like a ton of bricks, a revelation of ways I use to act and feel to attract girls. Obviously, I knew what it use to take to get the girls attention and attract them (at least in High School), but not often closing. I feel I can no longer do that because I have lost one of the most important components to who I was after the past few years being in love and in a relationship.

Self-confidence. I've lost my inner-game. I've found it all the much harder to regain it after recently graduating High School and being in College. The environment isn't the same as it was in High School and adjusting to it hasn't been all that simple because I have lost many friends due to my relationship. For me, having friends had and was always a great source of motivation, happy thoughts, and fun times in general that made me feel like I was a fun person to be hanging out with such fun and great friends.

I know I can make it back to who I was, who I wanted to be, and finally get rid of this self-destructive, self-defeating oneitis that has sucked the life out of me. I just have to follow through.

Looking forward to being on this board.