Hey everyone. I'm new to the community and i have absolutely no game, to put it bluntly .. im 19 years old and i go to Long Beach State.. its my second year here and i have no idea what i want to study.. lol. There are many, many, many hot girls at my school, and in two years of commuting back and forth from my home to long beach, i have yet to talk to any girls, and I've made very few friends, and i rarely go out. Im the typical shy guy in all my classes, the weirdo with the bad vibe. I lack a lot of self confidence, and i basically live almost completely in my head. I'm kind of skinny, have a very pale complexion and otherwise average/less then average looks.


I've always consciously wanted to change.. everything. my appearance, my personality, my outlook, because whatever I've been doing, it has not worked. Even though this idea floated around my conscience, whatever i would do or try to do to change did not work, or spiraled me further downward. I had looked into the community a while back, but as soon as i complemented it into my reality, it hadn't any application for me; most of you guys have to some degree social skills, bright personalities, and a great attitude about life- i dont. So i dismissed the whole idea of becoming a pua for about a year, then it dragged me back in. This shit really works, and i want to learn everything about it.

Before about 2 months ago, i was completely hopeless. I mean, i spent about 23 and a half hours in my room everyday, completely removed from society, playing WoW and getting high. That was my life for about 1 and a half years after high school; when my social life evaporated. Let me tell you, during that time, everything about my outlook and personality changed.. i was revolving around the idea that everything is futile, i became one negative sob, i stopped talking to most people in my family, and confined myself in my little room. All of my sanity hung on the dsl cable, and my ever-shrinking baggy. I really didn't care how shitty it was, i had my weed, my music and my computer. This deadly combination can suck the life out of any average anti socialite in no time. Before i went completely insane, i decided " I want out." I sold my game, shattered my piece, and decided to quit smoking. I reconciled with my dad which earned me a new car; rather, a 95 civic, but i had 0 complaints.

We had a sort of kickback at my house, for no special reason, around the time i decided to make this change. my friend (who is a chick) brought this girl i had never seen before, and due to my self-accepted gamelessness, i paid no attention to her, yet something about this old high school friend brought the funny, cocky side out of me. Unconsciously, i was gaming this chick, who was a 7 or so. i had opened the set, i negged all her stupid bracletts, dhv'd by ignoring her attention, gained rapport by talking to her in spanish (im white, shes hispanic), and escalated kino by offering her a piggyback ride when we were outside. By that time, this chick didnt stray far from my side.. my cousin walked by me and whispered in my ear "take her to your room". Looking back, this seemed prophetic. Anyway, i was shitting my pants, i had to isolate. But before i could think, she dragged me into the nearest room. she had isolated ME, lol. I'll leave out most of the details, but we made out for a while, and she wanted me sucking on her nipples, and i couldn't have been happier to do so. I was a 134 pound scrawny, stoned out looking guy, and i hooked up with this beauty. I still wasn't convinced in myself.

A new semester was starting, and i still hadn't shaken off all that negativity, but i was growing. I got gym membership, payed by the money i made selling my WoW account (rise from the ashes in a way), and started going 3 to four times a week. I was a machine, and i built an awesome lifting routine. I put aside all emotion and all social contact, and every week, i would get stronger, it was like a new drug for me. Week by week, i started to get more and more looks from girls at school it was a nice feeling. After only 2 months, i have worked myself up to 160 pounds. I now have the physique similar to that of someone in water polo. but with my inferiority-complex personality, im still 'that skinny guy', so im still working out like a monster. I buzzed my hair, because i cant for the likes of me style it. It looks way better now.

Physically, i have transformed. In all other aspects, change isn't so kind. But im ready for change, and i want to do everything in my power for this change to happen. Im willing to sacrifice all comfort, make myself look stupid, and get rejected. Im in much need of help in the game. Where do i start?. Also, what books or readings do you recommend? Any advice would be extremely appreciated..THANKS!!!!

I strive to be the best... and my former self lacks the essential qualities for such. So from here on, im a new person: His name is Scorpio.