Read my sad, sad story and laugh...

My name is Christopher Grouse, I am from the Tacoma/Gig Harbor area. I live on a University Campus.

I am 20 years of age and have been interested in PU for some time. However I have come to a serious block and I can't go it alone (I've been trying for a while). As Maniac said in one of his posts "seriously socially fucked up retarded," that's kind of like me.

I feel a bit bad about dumping this shit on you guys but: At one point in my life I faced some, at least in my mind, traumatizing shit, socially. Whether or not my reaction was warranted is a different story altogether. But whatever the case it created an overpowering psychological block. I would love to remove this block.

Whatever the case, I am sure that reading this forum and talking to the people in it will help me very much. Again I realize the downed mood of this post is kind of annoying but I'm trying to lay my case.

It's funny too because this block has subconsciously sabotaged my relationships on many occasions. But it caused less harm to me and more harm to other people (aka. the girl or friend) which is equally frustrating.

Oh well enough of that. I'm out.

Peace

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All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him. -- Buddha (the playa)

Smile man, look on the bright side. You are reforming now and moving forward in the world. I was a bit socially awkward in Junior high as well, very defensive, and terrible with women. Now, in second year university, most of my friends think I'm a player (and I kinda am). I used to worry about things I said in the past and embarrassments, not I just put them in the back of my head and move on.

The more you get out there and communicate, the less these sort of things dwell on you. If you aren't happy and outgoing, you better fake it starting right now, and soon you WILL be happy and outgoing. This forum can show you techniques to bedding women, but also can show you ways to improve yourself, and your social life. Take it all in and try to make a mental effort to move on from a difficult phase of your life. Accept it as it was, and be open with yourself and others about it.

I'm telling you right now, your life will improve. I turned a corner over the last two or three years from mild depression, to being socially competent, self content, and spiritually at peace. You can too, and even if you don't feel happy, act with the energy, personality, and outlook you want to have and soon enough you will be that person.

Thanks bro, that is helpful to know.

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All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him. -- Buddha (the playa)

youll be a player one day