Hi, Im Dilemmatic aka Michael. I am 21 years old, and I live in Holland. Moved with my mom when I was 8 from Poland. Broken home, mom worked all days, you know the scenario. After a turbulant childhood and puberty i'm finally getting on the right track.

Seducing women seems to me as one of the big ways to improve your overal life, social skills and confidence. Sadly I didnt have the balls to approach chicks. My head is a bit bigger than usual and I always was a chubby bastard.

By hanging with the wrong crowd I just got very passive on girl contact and didnt quite get it. I thought looks were nr.1 things. So I was just stuck on some levels. After a period of drugs I totally fkd up my self-image. After a kickback from xtc I stopped going out on saturdays and just smoked weed as soon as I was home after work(cause I left my school). But I wanted to get back in life again, so a slowly progressing period of regret and pain started. Than a bit by bit little tries I found the right path. My passion for music and some friends pulled me through and I started to read helpbooks and browse on the subject. After some basic psychology I started putting the pieces together. And now that I found out that writing stuff down every day on subjects, having a diary and meditating and NLP can show positive change again. I even lost 8 kilo. But ok im still in the proces of re-invention. Made some big progress the last few weeks with mainly meditation audio.

The program is called Holo Sync and can be found thru torrents.
website : http://www.centerpointe.com

Well, so I would like to get better with women. Approaching would prolly motivate me the most cause I seem to be control of my body language, I have charisma and can be funny. But mental blocks are holding me back SPAM. So I have this one girl I put a lot of time in, mainly on msn and texting. And I know shes not that special now luckily. But ok. Its kinda oneitis. But I honestly think I still have a chance. So lets see how it goes, if I fuck it up theres no escape from sarging anymore...

Read the story @ newbies section.

Tnxs in advance, Dile