I am thinking, maybe I should write some blog on forum, to keep track of my progress and show what I have done.

For example I do not have motivation to improve with this as much I as I need I guess. But when I would be able to show to others - now I did say hi to 4 girls today or smth like that, maybe this result would be visible.

Of course end result is to learn to talk to girls and people in general. Maybe talk and deal with people is even more important for living, because this would help to earn money. And without money it is imposssible to live.

I had a SPAM friend with who I could talk and tell what good I did and he gave advice, not always I like that advice, but some of them were good. But I see now he does not share contacs with me without telling anything so he does not want to talk to me anymore. And I do not have anymore such friends who are interested in self development as he was.

I see there are blogs in other forums and the readers join and tell their thoughts also. But this does not have specific blog section. So where could I do? Or maybe it wont work that way? Does any of you have blogs on self development?

And now since there is no such friend as he, I might be going back to my old life and listening to other people who do not know psychology and how to improve your life. They are better than me, but they do not understand how they do it. And sometimes they do something better, but some things very wrong, but they think its right way, and so they teach me those wrong things also if I listen to good things.

And since I am not motivated, I might be stopping to improve. Like after in summer I broke up, I was so unmotivated to approach girls, but I really need. I do not even believe I can find a woman which I would like to live with, but I need to at least be better than I am now, and definitely learn to talk with man which would be good in my carreer life.

The reports section.

actually I now noticed this thread which looks like what I want also:

general-questions/shooting-for-lay-2017 ... 00965.html

and it is in same section as this thread. But will check reports if you say so.

Checked reports section, and rules: I am not sure, I was thinking to have everything in one place (not many lay reports will happen soon with me anyway )

But I saw one thread where in first post author also said he will post everything. So now I am not sure, can I or cant I do like him, for example here:

field-reports/the-sharpest-edge-vt194590.html

And btw I kind of not even want to become an artist. I am programmer, ok writing code sometimes is called an art. But I still want be guy who likes logic and not be an artist, I am not sure I see some programmers do very good with girls also, at least way better than me. And not only with girls but with talking, stress handling in general. So this forum title which includes word "artist" bit sounds like not for me, but hopefully I can get what I want from here also and still remain logical person