So, she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen (ok, I know, bear with me). I know this is beta as hell, but I've only recently started self-development.
Tl;dr I like this friend I've known for two months and she's the only girl ever on my mind. Oneitis?
I am overweight (this'll resolve with time), so looks wise she is in a different league, but intellectually I am superior.
Our convos are usually philosophical and deep, and I've learned a lot about her passions. We went out for lunch a few times, and she dropped hints around 2 months ago like "my mom thinks I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life

" but my insecure/unconfident self recognized the obvious IOI but did not pursue (slapping myself for it!)
Now we're back in college after Christmas break, new semester, and I still think about this one girl!! So, after some self development over winter break (she maintained contact with me only because my beta a** basically begged for it), and recognizing all the beta things I've said to her, I wonder if I'm friend zoned now, but I don't care.. I want more, and if I can't get it, I don't give a rats a** about being friends, cause that would be too much heartache.
So, the last few days I've been alpha as hell. She got a new hairstyle, so I texted her "I want to see, when are you free tomorrow," she responded, and I took lead and told her when I'm meeting her. When we hung out, I tried to be candid, basically speak my mind within reasonable limits. For example, she was trying to teach me something, did not make sense whatsoever, and I semi-playfully tell her that I'm glad she's not becoming a teacher..
Anyway, she was saying something about doodling during class and I said I'm a pro and going to draw her.. so I basically drew a stick figure in her notebook. I still have her notebook so I'll probably give it to her the day after tomorrow when I see her in class again. I wrote down "some pretty girl I saw in physics" on the side, obvious hint that I like her (man why do I sound so beta, all that reading still hasn't made me as alpha as I want).
I honestly don't know why I'm sharing this, cause how is it relevant and why would you care, but basically idk I like this girl and I feel as though NO OTHER GIRL in this entire 15,000 student campus is as beautiful or relatable. Oneitis?