| OK ill lay it down on the line in a quick 2 min waahhhh 'feel sorry for me speech', which isn't intended to make you feel that way.
At this point in my life i am 20 years old, new to the game 6month's, have little exp with woman, insane shyness, i do everything wrong, i go about everyday task's wrong etc etc basically i am a complete failure, even my dad doesn't call me a man yet.
I'm asking for the help of an online guy, who turned there life around, for me its not all about the girls, its about me having fun within my self when I'm out, and not feeling this frozen shock wave of fear, i tend to act like many different people all the time, because i think its the only way to sort my self out in these situations, iv never been very good at talking to people i tend to mumble or mix my words all the time.
so for 2009 i decided maybe its time for change, because i now know with in my self change is good, and change is the right thing to do, so i made up a quick mental list of what I'm gonna change
1. I'm gonna sort my body out, i would say i have a few pounds over weight that plays on my mind insanely, I'm always holding my belly in because I'm thinking what other people think of me.
2. I'm gonna stop thinking too much about every thing, just take it as it come's and have fun.
3. I'm gonna ask for help. Why? because I'm ready for help, iv read and watched a lot of material and i personally feel i know this game inside out in theory, and here's the punch line, i don't have 'much' infield experience, which i lack and if i had the money i would pay to go to a boot camp, but sadly its not my time yet.
4. i had a lot of friends in the past, i lost them drugs, an a massive fucking wind up with a girl(too long of story) but lets just say i was the nice guy, with the emotional outlet who fell in love, and then it turned bad.
I'm gonna aim to make friend's and start hanging out again, but honestly i don't know where to start, I'm just a lovable loser. I would say right now I'm at rock bottom.
Also just to add, when I'm rarely invited out by my brother for a drink, and i try and speak and make input in the conversation, I'm either spoken over, or something really weird happens, i think these may be down to me craving attention, so inversely i don't get any, this always is the truth in general matters, be it in a shop or random outing's etc. I feel like i am the loser, who's 'just there' and I'm sad to say it, but it is really destroying my world.
So, here is my question to you guys out there, who get this, help me make DHV stories, and openers that reflect my personality, drop me some easy tips' that are gonna help me re frame these situations, and turn them into advantages for my self, i personally wish for the day, when i can walk into a club, have a giggle and fun with some beautiful woman, and show them, hey I'm here to have fun, i don't want in them pants yet, until were back at mine.
Cheers for reading
Manic.
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