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I've been depressed for a long time, and it really affects me when it comes to game.
I have basically zero sex drive. I'm surrounded by good looking women, so my brain automatically tells me "You can't have this." Like, I can't even watch normal porn because its just too "real" for me. I have a severe mental breakdown every few days, which leads me to thoughts of suicide. But this is followed by mental "highs", where I will almost literally be dancing all fucking day. It always goes in cycles.
I'm trying to find a therapist/psyciatrist/psychologist, but none are really answering their phones since its the weekend.
I go to the gym regularly, do hot yoga. Both are barely helping the situation. I rarely do approaches though because I just don't feel like I deserve it, and it fucks with my head. Whatever you guys can do to help fix my head..anything will help.
Hi SpiritualGangster!
Based on how you've described your current state of mind in your post and based on my own experience, you might be suffering from the symptoms of borderline personality disorder.
Since I am neither a psychologist nor a psychiatrist but just a guy who now has a solid knowledge about borderline personality disorder that I got stuck in and later learned about in relation to my past seduction and sexual addictions, I warmly recommend that you check out Shari Schreiber who's one of the most well-known experts on borderline personality disorder that I've ever come across.
By the way, Shari seems to be a very friendly person and she prefers helping people over the phone rather than via email. You can easily find Shari's direct phone number on her website at
http://gettinbetter.com/contact.html. Alternatively, you can also check out her website's forum where you can post any question in a form of a short story (limited to 150 characters) that she personally replies to. The link to her forum where you can directly (with no need to register) send her your question is here:
Shari Schreiber's Forum.
Hope this helps.
Bruno