Punch's Self-Development stuff.


Go to page 1, 2  Next
Users browsing this forum: No registered users and 0 guests
Post new topic Reply to topic   Board index » Real Life Gaming » Field Reports




Author Message
PostPosted: Sat Oct 19, 2013 12:32 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Hey. I'm a dude, 18 years old. Found the PUA community in 24.feb of 2011. My main goals here are to improve myself and my life in all the ways I can. I'm not JUST about laying girls. I'm mainly about living my life the way it's ment to be lived.

Here are my first tasks and goals.
- Deal with depression. (Reading a book called Feeling Good - The New Mood Therapy right now and will apply the things talked about there as much as I can.)
- Rework my daily tasks and routine. (This includes creating a better sleeping pattern, meditation, exercising and so on, also so my routine wouldn't take over my whole life and make it boring.)

Overally here's what I want my life to look like in the end (this is still a vague description so it might change).
First of all what I want in myself: Physical health, looks and style. Mental health (no depression/ADD issues, calmness and mainly anything that shows good mental health, including confidence), brain power (memory, thinking speeds, creativity and all that stuff), abilities (social skills, hobbies like hard dance and parkour, anything relevant to high value, poker).
In my life: Financial income. Mostly anything you could dream of (I will define this in future posts).

As you could see I have troubles defining what I actually want in my life, it has been like that for a long time now, if anyone has any tips on structurizing these things please post. Thanks. ^___^


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Sun Oct 20, 2013 8:07 am 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Good news. I actually did some of the things I was supposed to do yesterday. I meditated and then tried to take a nap at the time it was set (19:00 - 20:30 = NAP; 01:00-05:30 = SLEEP), I didn't fall asleep but atleast I tried to change something.
My depression is getting better already as I'm using the stuff in the book, I don't do the exercises but instead I meditate on the ideas in the book, I try to feel what thoughts are behind my emotions and then try to see if they're realistic or not.

I didn't fap either.

I'm also improving my conversation game and text game. (I read like 4 kind of short books yesterday.)

I have a small plan on how to seduce my ex at this point, I'm still not sure if it's a good idea, but I know it'll be hell load of fun for me if I get past getting her number. (I can chat with her on a site, probably won't be able to meet her irl much at first.) The plan:
Get her number by being mysterious, the only thing I will say to her until I get her number is "We need to talk in private." or something like that. After getting her number I plan to not text her or chat with her much for some time to make her think about what I wanted, after that I'll tell her I want to practice some "new stuff" on her (she knows I'm PUA and in lots of weird stuff and I think she should go with this, also gives me a good hide-away while I use my NLP convo stuff). Then after that I'm planning on pushing all the PUA buttons I can find, I will probably use "The Rose pattern" via text (yes, you can use hypnosis through text, atleast I think so, since you can pretty much write a long text as something "special" that she should pay more attention to). After that hammer hammer hammer, boyfriend destroyers and so on. I'll see what the situation needs from me.

I failed at only one point, I didn't get up at 5:30, but that was since no-one at my place is usually up at that time on weekends (it would be wiser if everyone woke up at that time in my opinion, however).

I have questions that I'll look for the answers myself too, but you can try answering them here:
How much should I meditate?
What is/are the best thing/s to do before going to sleep?

ALSO:
Here are some new goals.
I will make atleast 10 helpful and meaningful posts every day on the forums.
I will exercise every 1, 3, 5 day from now on.
I will not tilt at poker even one little bit, ever again.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Mon Oct 21, 2013 6:04 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Woke up way too late in the morning. Actually worked on my grades (Thanks to encouragement from Chicoman69). Exercised. Meditated (poorly). Third time I can't fall asleep in my nap time.

Really don't have ANY time on my hands at this point.

I noticed I submit to others thoughts REALLY easily and give up my frame, so I'll see to that ASAP. Also, there's a way to rationalize girls emotionality so they would feel and think what you want them to, this only works if she has shown a false emotional reaction to your actions though, once she reacts wrongly you keep asking her questions until she clears up, in the way you can "lead" (women like to be lead alot) her into the thoughts/state you want her to be in, she'll practically believe anything if she knows she was wrong, it's like replacing her thoughts.

Update on my ex:
She's being a tease. I'll wait 2 days from now before telling her I can just go ask some other chick, I gained social proof too, lol.

Update on the girl at school:
She's still interested but I'm blanks at school. ><
No anxiety, just a blank fucking head.


Improving every day by like 70% now. ^___^


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Tue Oct 22, 2013 6:27 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
No fap gives me improved energy and social intuition.

I went to school with a different look today, everyone pretty much noticed me. Scarf + uncombed hair ftw? I did good Alphaing though, so I suppose I looked really confident and unshakable.

"Your plans don't fit into my plans." I found out this thought works well if you want to show people how much you don't fucking give a shit. Like when some random guy says Hi to you and you just blank on him or even if anyone acts out of YOUR order, you just go for a new girl if she doesn't like you/plays games and so on.

The girl at school, the HB8, let's call her Jessica. She tried starting rapport with me again but that's about how far it went. 2 line convo. I'm not even mad at myself. I need to get my shit down before I start something with her.

My ex, she's a HB8 to me too, let's call her Turtles. Nothing new. I'm just waiting to tell her to decide if she wants to send me her number. I won't be sending her mine. Whatever.

The second girl at school, the HB7, let's call her Spunk. She's 16 (or younger) so I don't want to even K-close her, still good practicing material so I will use her and maybe score a slightly more intimate hug-close? Nevertheless, I only got 2 IOI's from her today, I tried going after her last year, but failed since she had a fantasy about some other dude in my class - she didn't get him.

My grades are doing better than ever and best of it all with the routine I have, I don't even feel tired at all. I have this super-human memory or something too, I remember anything I want, anytime I want really vividly. Wish I knew why.

I want to recommend this book: The Sexual Key - How To Use The Structure Of Female Emotion To Arouse A Woman In Minutes.
The book is GREAT if you want to improve your convo skills and especially if you want a greater understanding of how their minds work.

Here's a song because I just woke up and it made me feel goooood:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuSZL9uIKTM


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Wed Oct 23, 2013 7:48 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Well, I lost structure today. I suppose days like these WILL happen and I will have to deal with them. I messed up my routine by an hour or so. (Didn't meditate and shower after exercising.)

I realised how important a solidly based confidence is. Girls WILL shit test the fuck out of you and these things CAN hurt your self-esteem and confidence. And even if she doesn't like you, there's a neutral way out of it (even when she's bitchy) since girls are socially pressured as we all are to make good decisions and it's wrong to start a war for nothing.

I have to dive into myself to find my way out of the chaos I feel now. Today sucked dick.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Sat Oct 26, 2013 8:55 am 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Brain fog is dieing, I'm eating more healthily, exercising and drinking more water for it. If you need to know more about this, just ask me in the post. I used a book called SharpBrains to find the instructions.

I'm meeting Turtles (my ex) today and feeling great about it. She has relationship issues with her boyfriend and she's pretty much mine. I hope. p;

I found out that hobbies are a MUST if you want to be PUA. Why? Well, PUA's need a stable income of happiness in their lives, you simply can't live off just PUA shit. It's almost like poker, there will be variance and you CAN and WILL get depressed if you have nothing good to do. It also improves your game drastically as it's easier to not give a shit, when she gives you shit.

My sleep routine doesn't work (brain fog could be because of this) so I'm reworking it to 3 cycles of 2 naps and 1 plateau which looks something like this (I haven't perfected it, this is just a sketch):
1:30 nap (90 min)
3:18 awake (192 min)
1:30 nap (90 min)
3:18 awake (192 min)
4:30 plateau (270 min)
9:54 awake (606 min)

My confidence is sky-rocketing and next week (I have holidays for a week now) I will start building a huge social circle, will start by strenghtening relationships in my class and expand from that.
I'll read this: http://www.braddocksblog.com/social-circle-mastery-2/

What else can I say. No fap is still running good. I didn't do much the last 2 days because of my brain fog (I can't even focus on my life, lmao).

Adding to all that here's a small list of things I WILL focus on for the holidays, so I don't get oneitis with my ex if it runs well and not just that:
- Meditation.
- Poker.
- Exercising.
- Lucid Dreaming.
- (anything else that I will probably remember of later)
My main goal in every of these things is "Keep focused at all times, don't let other thoughts intrude, nothing else matters while I have this subject in front of me.".


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Mon Oct 28, 2013 9:50 am 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
My plans have TOTALLY changed. (Can you see the inconsistency in my life?)

I'm reading Eckhart Tolle's "A New Earth" and I'd say the book is great and a must-read for any human being.

I did go by my routine as usual, with the newly added sleep routine, I exercised as well, did shit-tons of stuff yesterday tbh.
No-fap failed, I did it, it felt good and I ain't sorry about it.

My ex is still with her boyfriend. I'll look deeper into it, but I suppose it's a no-go for me.
What I'll still try:
Acting careless. (I'm happy on my own, I don't fucking need her, but I don't mind chatting her.)
Finding out more about her boyfriend and structuring a few bf destroyers.
Cleaning her ego, by making her re-see me for who I am. (I believe she has associated a thought pattern with me, which I will replace.)

Overally I feel intensivelly happy and not-give-a-fucking about random ass crap that I don't like.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Fri Nov 15, 2013 2:02 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Currently reading Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich".
I will use some of the principles there. I have created a theory that it's all purely about imagination, intent and belief so it might not be on point with everything written there.

Here're my goals in 2 years.
== Personality. ==
- Dominant. (not meaning being better than someone, instead, being in control of every situation, not controlling, but in control.)
- Delightful. (meaning, making everyone feel good and cared about around me.)
(Those are all that I have in mind right now, I didn't add confidence, leadership, charm, playfulness, manipulativeness and others because I feel they're mainly already in the ones above or I will require them while pursuing my other goals so I don't need to point them out that much. If anyone has anything to add, even if you think you could be making a mistake, please do so at any point.)

== Body. ==
- Tan.
- Hardcore build.
(Not much to this, eh.)

== Cash. ==
- 100kUSD.
(Whatever, lol.)

== Black Box Crew. ==
This one's for mah peeps and the people to mastermind and dominate with. Also, incred rep. I'm actually thinking of creating a small music band or something like that, but ofcourse I'm not all pinpointed of what I want to create, I want all my options open and I might even use every I get.

I'll go take the first steps now and psych myself up.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Fri Nov 15, 2013 3:50 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Addict

Joined: Sat Nov 09, 2013 1:24 am
Posts: 268
Location: Austin
Good luck bro! I like that you are so motivated for self-improvement at a young age. Sounds really promising!

_________________
Chris
Dating Strategist
https://structureofdating.com/


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Sun Dec 01, 2013 8:40 am 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Cdharders wrote:
Good luck bro! I like that you are so motivated for self-improvement at a young age. Sounds really promising!


Thank You for the reply.

I haven't made any progress yet. Right now I have figured out that these goals can't grant me happiness, it's the things I will do on the way to them. I'm creating a great daily routine right now based on sleeping times.
It looks something like this:
01:00 (pre-sleep routine 30 min)
01:30 (sleep 4:30 min)
06:00 (wake-up routine)
07:20 (end of wake-up routine)
??:?? (lunch)
??:?? (exercise, weights/cardio)
??:?? (light the furnace, bring in wood)
19:00 (pre-sleep routine 30 min)
19:30 (sleep 1:30 min)
21:00 (wake-up routine)
??:?? (mental exercise)
??:?? (reading 2h)
01:00 (pre-sleep routine 30 min)
== THE PRE-SLEEP ROUTINE. ==
Stretch. >> Put off clothes. >> Get comfortable. >> Imagine tomorrow. (real vs hard, perfect) >> Visualization. "I'm entering a dream realm now. Stay calm and conscious."
== THE WAKE-UP ROUTINE. ==
Wake-up grooming. (face exercises (to wake up gradually) >> washing up >> hair) >> Breakfast. (add cold water and vitamins) >> Brush teeth. >> Make bed. >> Stretching. >> Meditation. (30 min) >> List things I want to do today. (IMPORTANT: to do and not to finish/achieve/get)
The nap routines are slightly different from the normal routines, but it's pretty much the same all the time.

Also doing no-fap. Decreasing external stimuli (sweets, the internet). Eating more healthily.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Sun Dec 01, 2013 9:57 am 
Offline
New to MPUA Forum

Joined: Wed Nov 20, 2013 8:18 pm
Posts: 28
Another poker player, nice!
What stakes and format u playing?


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Sun Dec 01, 2013 12:37 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
fizk wrote:
Another poker player, nice!
What stakes and format u playing?


Currently I'm broke. I had tilt and motivation issues.
I like the Speed Poker tables. I recently discovered that I kept getting stuck at the 10USD mark only because I started "relaxing" at that point because my self-image was one of a guy, that "10USD is enough for". Changed that, but haven't played yet.

The only place I can actually play any poker right now is PP (Puzzle Pirates) which is a terrible place to play on. I like the people there. Usually 16-40 y.o. play there, but sometimes you get little kids trolling it off, lol.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Tue Dec 03, 2013 8:02 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
Facing willpower issues.

I realized that the daily routine is IMPOSSIBLE to implement for me. One reason: Not enough willpower.
Therefore I have done a small research on it and here's a small system I will follow from now on (gradually making myself more disciplined as I get more willpower).
1. Sleep well.
2. Eat.
3. Exercise.
4. Meditate. (Surrender to any resistance. As in, "never deny the flow, instead go with it.")
You might be thinking, "but this is already on the list", well, these are the things I should be focusing on PRIMARILY in the beginning. I'm trying to create an environment that makes me choose/resist less and at the same is better for inducing neurotransmitters. Music also helps.

Treating myself like an undisciplined baby. :3


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Tue Dec 17, 2013 3:42 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
WELL.
Nothing much has happened in the recent days.
I realised that instead of making problems out of things (like, exercising etc.) you should accept them and forget about the outcome. What I mean is, don't take them as problems that have to be solved, no, nothing has to be solved, you just let everything flow as it wants to. You want to exercise? FINE. Do that. Realise the outcomes, but never have the outcome as the logical reason to do something. Well, what's the logical reason then? The logical reason is that, you're alive, you do stuff, that's all. You DO "stuff", whatever it is.
Problems are all in your head, happiness draining vampires. Today I woke up and I had to go to school to do the most dreadful thing ever, leave it. I was calm all day and that was all thanks to me thinking "There're no problems, I'm just a human being doing mah stuffs."

Hopefully, I'll start doing something with my life now. (I've been playing Terraria, that game is SO addicting.)
Also, improved at poker.

I have a lot of thoughts and beliefs to change because of this little fix, I'll be looking at them and I suggest to anyone who's reading this to do the same.


Top
 Profile  
 
PostPosted: Tue Dec 31, 2013 1:55 pm 
Offline
MPUA Forum Enthusiast

Joined: Tue May 14, 2013 7:39 am
Posts: 92
I finally decided to make a post here.

I have done barely anything to improve my life (I did earn 43USD, but is that even cash?).
I only now realized that half of the things I want to do in my life are psychologically anchored to something I hate or some sort of pain, OR something tiring and troublesome. To add to that, all of these thoughts are "supposedly" the ones I should use to achieve something and that creates a vicious cycle of pain and torture for myself.

I also realized that there're 2 sides for anyone. There's the "real" you, which comes out when you know everything is alright (usually brightly appears once you trust someone fully in a relationship.) and there's the defensive you which comes out whenever you're hurt or in danger. You could also add the 1st phase of both as the third you, which is the phase where you decide what you will act out in the situation.

Now my further plans are to empower myself as much as I can, rebuild my self image, rebuild my beliefs (including destroying those painful anchors), find my true self again and create a small flow of actions (doing little things that I don't usually do every day, but I should), meditate and do whatever else I find helpful, activating and resourceful.


Top
 Profile  
 
Display posts from previous:  Sort by  
Post new topic Reply to topic  [ 16 posts ]  Go to page 1, 2  Next

All times are UTC


You cannot post new topics in this forum
You cannot reply to topics in this forum
You cannot edit your posts in this forum
You cannot delete your posts in this forum
You cannot post attachments in this forum

Search for:
Jump to: