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ill just text her something short which indicate that i have moved on and i have no hard feelings for her what so ever.
no, don't do that. no reason to, just you playing drama and being weak about it. be stronger, don't send it. you'll regret it down the road when you look back on it. you've got 60 days of no contact, keep it going. just take in 1 day chunks, one day at a time. if you can't do one day then 4 hours, just make it to 4 hours without contacting her.
even if she does come back, which she would have by now if she wanted to, you will chode out again, your head isn't right (neither is mine, so I'm not trying to be superior in any way) and you'd fuck it up again and have to begin the no contact cycle again from day 1. hard as hell to do, feel bad for you, but big breath and focus on you you you. as much as you want, crave, desire, need, feel overwhelmed by the need for some contact with her, you know in your heart that its not the right thing to do. usually the hardest thing to do is the right thing. I too need to take some of my own advice here so its good for me to be typing this out so that I too can focus on getting everything I need from within, can't fill that hole from the outside. hang in there and just keep swimming