Hi everyone, I'm in a tricky situation at the moment.
I've been with my girlfriend for nearly 3 months, and even before we had 2 months, I knew everything about her life: her cheating past, why it didn't worked, why she cheated, basically everything from her 14s to her 20s ... She gave me her facebook password, said she had never trusted it to someone before, I gave her mine as well.. I don't care if she logs in on mine or not, I have nothing to hide.
Here's the thing that bothers me... like a girl she is, being attractive and sexy, she had a lot of guys hitting on her, which gradually started to diminish, now there's only about 2 or 3 guys hitting on her. SHe shows me their facebook messages, and I really have an all access card to her life. Few times she leaves her facebook on my laptop, and I can't resist to look at the messages, sometimes I see what I think of as flirting, but she says, she really doesn't even care... I mean, a guy dreamed of them kissing, and he told him he wanted to fulfill it, and she didn't told him yes, but neither did she told him no.. she just let him loose.... she gives them hollow hopes, so to speak, or at least with this guy, but with another guy, I was seeing they were talking about how he liked her a really long time ago, and she said, that if she had known, she'd hook up with him, and they made some pact for if theyre single to look for each other (this other guy has a gf) ....
So even though she isn't hiding anything from me, and I have the 100% access to all of this, she considers it harmless, but its causing me to become insecure and jealous.
Is this ok from my part? She has even said, that if I want to she can erase them all, just so I know she only cares for me. But what do I do? How do I not let this eat me up? ...
Ive been thinking of just letting it go... they're just messages, its not like theyre seeing each other..
What can I do? Please, its burning me up!
Thanks!
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