I just had a shift in my inner game that I want to share. I have been working on eliminating limiting beliefs by writing all of them down in a journal as I see them pop up. Well one was still stuck in a blind-spot until just a few minutes ago, which is crazy because I've talked to lots of people about this particular one. The one is - I subconsciously am constantly checking to see if the girl likes me. It causes me to seek reactions and button push, which gives the try-hard vibe. I kept saying to myself, "I am the buyer" and other inner game affirmations, but I didn't even realize I was still wondering IF the girl likes me rather than ASSUMING she does. I talked to a natural I met last week over dinner about how as a kid I wanted people to like me, and how I don't care anymore. BUT the reality is I was still holding on to that childhood, particularly middle school 6th-8th grade, mindset, always trying to gauge how much someone or the group likes me. I was journaling today, because I still felt a sense of internal powerlessness over my ability to get what I want sexually. As I was writing, I realized what I really wanted was not my sexual desires fulfilled now, but my desires filled back in middle school, high school, and even before. I was still stuck and hanging on to the past. I thought I had worked it out of me, but I realized it wasn't all gone. So, I started to imagine that I was always a part of the cool crowd from elementary school, and middle school, and high school, and college. And that I always got every girl I was ever interested in from those times. And I imagined that in middle school and high school the hott girls would look at Playboy magazines with me and pretend to do the photo-shoots like in the mags. And that 2 or more girls and I would watch a little girl on girl and threesome porn together and we would do the things we saw in the videos to explore and experiment together. And by having this "history" I would be a natural. I would automatically feel entitled to sleep with every girl I want however I want with who ever else I want
. Then it hit me, I would always feel like, "This guy likes me. This girl likes me. They like me. This crowd likes me. I am at the center of the cool lunch table." Haha! Working on inner game is awesome. I'm going to Vegas this Fri and Sat, and I can't want to hold that intention at the center of my thoughts as I game!