So I'm in a relationship and before we got into it, a while back I did something bad. I don't know why I said it so carelessly but I had sex with another girl who I didn't know she really hated. It was after a rave.. >< That day was the most emotional day I've ever felt. I want a time machine damnit! lol. But I feel like I had to say it. We got over it but I feel like, once the wall has been crumbled, it can never be perfectly put together again. It's fixed, but there are still cracks.
I haven't talked to her today, but I looked in her blog, and she posted this:
.... feel like I’m regressing. With all the progress I made before, it just got swept away because my insecurities are resurfacing again. You don’t know how much your words affected me that day. You were so careless with what you said. I know you didn’t know though. It was awhile ago, but it’s still eating me up ....
I don't know what to do to fix this.
Tis emotional.
