I left this girl for 8 weeks. Over that time I still kept thinking about her but I wasn't crazy about her. I finally came back to get with her again. I approached nicely, she said I was too much. Then I took the approach of still being nice and leaving while understanding. I was going to leave and she said she's off to explore. 3 minutes later she said that I left her. Anyways later after that, I went through phases of being a complete AFC and apologizing and then I would get the feeling that I am too weak so I would play hard and fight with her. Anyways one day I cracked and decided it was time to let the balls drop and tell her how much I love her. So I did that and I kept saying over and over again how I feel and stuff and she would say "Bye" to me. I kept sending her messages non-stop and she said, "I'm not even reading your shit, I'm going to block you." I said, "Block me I don't care, I still love you."
So now she blocked me, and will not respond to me anymore. I KNOW she feels bad inside because it took her 20 minutes to block me and she finally did it. When I told her once, "I give up, when do you want me to leave." She said, "I don't care." I mean my stupid AFCness pushed her to the limit to block me. While that sounds bad, I just know that she can't stop thinking about me either. That's the whole reality of it. When me and her were in a relationship, it was on fire. We kept fighting, ignoring each other, making each other jealous, coming back for one another..making up...Either way we never ended it. It's just that I took a long break from her so everything can chill but that amount of time messed it all up.
I made this girl cry plenty of times before because I would do something very sweet and would cry. She spilled her nail polish on her mattress because of me and still has the stain. After 8 weeks, I decided to add her on facebook. I looked through her info and one of her new emails was "lahvyoudia@yahoo.com" and "Lahv" is how I say "love" because I have an accent. Under her activities it said, "Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone. Too often we're too stubborn to say, 'Sorry, I was wrong.' Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts, and we let the most foolish things tear us apart"
I talked to her friend and the guy already KNEW what was going on. She told him that I was "hella weird" and stuff. He told me to not worry about it.
We tried to hit it off once but she snapped out of it. I remembered to not completely be an AFC just because we're trying to get along this one time so I playfully teased her and stuff. She reacted as well but at the end she said, "Who the fuck cares anymore." When I came back for her she told me, "You still got that Roxanne chick." (because I was in a relationship that only lasted a week when I went after this girl again.) However me and Roxanne broke up and I told her that I'm not with her anymore. My ex even TRIED to tell her that me and her didn't do shit together (we really didn't, it was a fake relationship, she wanted popularity.)
To sum it all up, I left a girl and came back for her. She's very pissed/sad/tempted. During the the "getting her back again" phase, she would occasionally open up to me and invite me on webcam but I declined because I told her I was actually busy. As for me, well...I was only able to keep my cool on the first day. After that I eventually began to lose my sanity because I realized that I love her.
I recently made a video of my parrot dancing to her favorite song with me playing the electric guitar in the background. She had these lyrics on her facebook so I looked them up a long time ago to find what song they were from, and this time I made it a surprise. I even bought her a Christmas gift during the time I was trying to get back with her. She didn't say a word about it. I would also email her pictures of me flexing and stuff because I'm one of those ripped guys and she said, "lol stop." later she said, "Irritated by your damn face." She said things like, "you act like everything is normal again" etc. I have tried every single thing possible. There are just too many emotions involved for this to go anywhere anymore.
I requested her on facebook last night and she declined. I sent her a message saying, "Alright, I understand, sorry for being weird lately..I just couldn't get over you. Take care I guess..you won't hear from me again." When we fought last week she said, "Making a new screen name, byeee (:" 2 days later she's back on her old screen name.
I think only time will solve something. I want to tell her that I'll be ready for her whenever she's ready just to not make it look like I don't care anymore because I've done that way too many times. She even said to me, "All you ever do is leave." I feel like I should be counter-intuitive this time.
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