i fucked up everything with this girl.
so i kissed her on saturday night that ive known for a while (flirting, kissing in private etc.) she told me she loved me as well (we were both drunk) and i told her to either pick me or him because i was done fucking around (im moving to uni the next week but still only 20 mins away from her). she says she loves me and wants 2 weeks to sort things out before we can get together. then her bf finds out about us kissing. dumps her.
sunday morning she texts me saying shes single (all her texts are unusually serious and not playful or flirty at all) she moves all her stuff out of her boyfriends place and goes home.
so anyway, on monday we spoke on msn and she tells me she thinks we're best off as friends and shes going to talk to her boyfriend on wednesday because she still has feelings for him but everythings such a mess and she said she wishes me all the best for uni. (this made me angry so i blocked her lol)
i later talked to her again telling her i meant everything i said on saturday and it wasnt just because i was drunk, i told her she really needed to think about what she really wanted. she told me she couldnt be in a relationship with me because she would only hurt me. at the time i was just like "hahaha as if u could ever hurt me".
later on that day i was in a kinda bad mood at the time so i texted her saying something about how if she ever hurted or cheated on me in a relationship then i would never forgive her and wouldnt want to ever be with her, and if she wanted to just fuck around then she might as well go back to her bf. then i said at the end of the text "i do love u but i think im going to have to force myself to move on. have fun."
she texts back saying that i had took it in the wrong context and that shes thinking about what she wants because she doesnt want to fuck around anymore. then she says "have fun at uni, like i said go wild, im sorting my life out and i hope we can still be friends but i understand if u dont want to talk for a while if that makes it easier for u to move on".
i just replied to that saying "whatever, have fun".
since then nothings happened, whenever shes come online on msn or anything ive not spoken to her. i was planning on freezing her out for ages so she would want me back. but about an hour ago she deleted me off facebook
so i mustve done something wrong.normally i would just move on but i love this girl so much.
i felt like angrily messaging her on msn saying how pathetic she was for deleting me, but i doubt thats going to get me anywhere lol. i dont know what to do to start things back up with her without seeming needy or whatever after the last text i sent her.
Any suggestions on how to handle this? (other than moving on obviously, i know this is a challenge, but im sure i can get through it somehow)
thanks