I am really confused myself and I know they say " only you can tell" but I was wondering do you think you guys have any idea of where or what books I should read?

I seem to want just 1 girl that cares for me and is really hot...but I dont want girls that are like too easy or are just for fun. I dont know why I dont want that, am I the only one? I dont want to just have sex and dump...next girl. I am still a virgin so maybe thats why... but im not too old , im graduating highschool? I want to have sex with somone who i really care about...its my morals. I think after I have sex a few times il get over it and il just want to have sex with girls who maybe I just met at the club last night.

But as of now, I just want a girlfriend that will love me and so that i wouldnt have to game anymore. this whole year I have been single... and I'v only had 1 gf and she was alright maybe an hb7 so not high.. I know currently shes an hb6 because she got fat and i realized more girls are out there that are like way hoottteerrr.

I want a hot girlfriend thats really sincear and who wont cheat and stuff. I dont want a girlfriend that will call me or bother me. In my old relationship i dont know but i hated to call my gf and just talk.. i rather talk on msn does that mean I am a looser? I am not even that social in life...i have few friends now but when ever theres a party, all my friends stay together and i go gaming for girls... and i usualy end up in a group and then find out the girl doesnt like me..

what books should I read for getting this girl? is this what everyone wants or is everyone just looking to pickup girls and keep picking up girls.. i only want to pickup a girl lol. I have checked out david d and mystery a little. when I game I use cocky and fine type overconfident type guy but i can never keep conversations going.

anyways im sorry I might not get replies cause this is too long, If you read it all really appreciate it and your really helping me out if your reply.