Planned to create a blog but instead I have decided to create my own blog topic that can continually be bumped as the need arises, instead of creating many other topics. This would ensure all of the things I need answered and inspiration as well as a way to gather my own thoughts and gain advice from other people stay in the place.
I am going to record events in my life, sort of as a diary, and going to point out the reasoning so I can look back and others can also input. I am a thinker and things can never be analysed in enough detail
Before I start, I don't expect everyone to read this, and certainly not all of it. I am going to try and be more concise as I go along. If anyone takes the time to make one of these blogs themselves I will happily contribute, as lessons can be learned from sharing things.
Thurs 18 June - End of A-Levels so everyone from college was going out to a bar/club to celebrate. Trouble is, couldn't find anyone to go down with, just knew that they were all going. Didn't want to go down on own, and friend texted me saying to come down in a diff bar; wasn't aware he was going out.
I get there and it's dead, so we went to another place (the place where my college was) and they went to watch Transformers 2 at 00:01. Stuck in a place where I knew everyone, but I didn't know who anyone was, I mingled from group to group, creating 'social proof'. I actually had a good time, it was fun, I could do anything and no one would care, wouldn't have to dump anyone for a girl and get stick. No one particularly caught my eye save for one girl, AS, whom I know vaguely but not well. She lives in the same road as me and we used to play out occasionally. However we don’t know each other at all, apart from those two facts. She always talks to me at parties but I've always found it hard to get her attracted to me. Armed with 'The Game' I hope maybe this time will be different, as before I only had DD's C&F. We talked and it appeared she was going to the same fancy dress party I was that was on Saturday. Told her I was going as a 'cereal killer' (dressed in cereal boxes with a sword) and told her to look out for me. I said “you again, you’re stalking me” and somehow it ended up that I peeped at her through her windows. No idea but it’s a joke so who cares.
I decide I want to sit inside (I don't) but wanted to lead her like the alpha male I now am, however AS wants to sit with friends, understandable as we don't know each other at all really. Anyways she sits down and immediately I'm jumped on by two attractive girls that are just friends, and realise that AS will see so just stuck with them, before heading elsewhere after a while.
I knew a lot of people, and actively made an effort to talk to them, laugh and have fun. The time I wasn't speaking or smiling was kept to a bare minimum. I enjoyed the new image I was presenting and after a few minutes it didn't feel like I was trying to do this - I was doing this. It was the first step in the new me.
Fri 19 - Went to friend's party. No nice girls there until one comes with size F tits. She came onto me and I acted uninterested for a while, then realised she was a slag and I had to show some interest or she'd find someone else. Got into her, and would've fucked her but decided I didn't want to have sex with someone with 20 partners, and the way she spoke and how annoying she was turned me off, plus she was a bit chubby. I just wanted to see if I could kiss her but took it too far. Oh well, shit happens. Told her I was 'too drunk to get it up' instead of saying 'you don't attract me enough'. I'm nice
Sat 20 - Fancy dress party. Turned up late as had to go to work and had won the County table tennis tournament (how can I DHV this without bragging?). AS approaches me and says "I knew someone told me they were going as a cereal killer, i forgot it was you!" Anyways we talk and eventually mingle again.
Next see her in a packed club full of everyone I know, and since I’m not pretending to be a really social and standy out person anymore it’s great. I have loads of girl friends, and only on sat night did I realise how much I could abuse this. If one girl sees you with another, they immediately class you as more attractive. This is the whole AFC Adam Social Proof theory and the fact that if a girl sees another smile at you she subconsciously interprets it as sexual attraction.
I dance with 3 or so girls, all of them average and above, and whilst I am dancing with one AS approaches me and says “let me know when you’re going home, so I can get a taxi with you” and I say “ok give me your number then and I’ll text you”. So I get my phone out and she puts it in. I’ve already progress. I go back to dancing with the girls (should’ve said ‘let’s dance’ – no, I should’ve grabbed her hand and made her twirl). After half an hour I text her asking where she’s at and she’s in the same place as me still. She texted me later saying she was already home (IOI – or at least she cares to let me know, even if we didn’t get a taxi) and I told her I was waiting for her with Claire (build attraction) and that I was going to watch her sleep and upload them to facebook, she laughs and says she’s tired and I say “I’ll let you sleep then” and she replies saying “night night cereal killer” (IOI?)
Thanks for all who have bothered to read - will update when I have more things to say. Please feel free to leave comments/advice