So, this HB 9 just started working at my job a couple of weeks ago, and the first week she started we just made eye contact but I never talked to her because i'm a shy dude. I don't really approach girls, I usually wait for them to come up to me.
Anyways, she ends up finally talking to me, complimenting me on the sales I was getting and then I ask her how she was doing. She was doing ok. So she ends up coming up to me a couple minutes later asking me if I smoke weed and have a girl friend. She said that we should hang out sometime. I told her I don't smoke much. But she asked me if I had a phone and asked me if she could give me her number.
I was like..Of Course! Anyway, she ended up leaving 2 minutes after that and I didn't hit her up the whole weekend. When she see's me again on monday, she's like, why didn't you hit me up? So, I ask her what she was doing that day, and we ended up up getting some coffee and going to the movies. I ended up making out with her in the movie.
So the next day, we see each other at work and she tells me she's going to the club that night, and tells me I should come out. I was like, ok, i'm down. So she hit's me up all day, I SWEAR TO GOD, she hit me up like every 15 minutes to see if I was on my way. She did this for like 3 hours straight. Anyway, when I get there, she ends up getting kicked outta the club and she got hella drunk so I didn't end up meeting up with her cuz she lost her phone.
So, i end up seeing her the next day, and she tells me what happened and we end up hanging out again after work. I pick her up and she's like, " what's up with your place? we can't chill there? I was like, i'm down!" So we end up going back to my place and watching a movie and having sex.
The next day, we end up making plans to meet each other dt again. She called me a punk cuz I didn't invite her to come drink with me, but I didn't invite her because I don't have many friends and the one that came with me, we just ended up drinking in the car when we got there. I didn't tell her that. Anyway, she ended up going with some guy friends. So we meet up there, and she dances with me for like 1 minute then tells me she's gonna dance with her guy friend but she wants to end up with me at the end of the night. I'm like, Ok, but i end up leaving the place she was at because the guy to girl ratio was wack.
She ends up hittin' me up, saying where u @? I told her left, and she ends up hittin me up tellin' me that that was wack and that she was tryna chill with me. And i tried to explain to her my point of view, but she kept interupting me. I was drunk so I hung up on her. Anyway, she ends up callin' me LITERALLY 9 times after that, and texting me 3 times telling me to please answer my phone. I wasnt going to talk to her for the rest of the night but I texted her back say that I don't like people bitchin' at me.
Anyway, she came home with me that night and we had sex again.
So two days after that we hang out again, at my place and I try to initiate sex but she says she's too tired for it. I'm like ight. So, the next day she ends up texting me asking if she can tell me something.
Her: I really like like you
Me: I really like you 2
Her: No, I mean, I really really like you, like in a not messing around kind of way
Me: What exactly are you saying?
Her: Can you see something more happening between us.
Me: There's a lot of things I have to think about, but its definitely a possibility =)
So we end up kickin' it that next day at my house again and I try initiating sex again and she was still resistant. I was a little irritated but I tried not to show it. Anyway, I end up taking her home and in the car ride, she was like:
"You wanna know what it is? It's just that I don't feel like i'm the only one, I think you have other girls." Keep in mind I met this girl only 2 weeks ago. I got all mad at her, which was prob. dumb and just drove her home and didn't give her a kiss when i dropped her off like i usually do. So she' ends up calling me twice, I don't answer. Then she texts me "I just want to know why I didn't get a kiss?"
I told her that it was because what she said irritated me because i already told her i didn't have a girlfriend and I told her that even if I was talking to other girls why would it matter, I just met you.
I don't think I should have said this, so I ended up calling her back and she ends up going off on me, telling me that she feels like everytime we hang out she feels like I just want to have sex and that she just wants to chill sometime. She then gives me the option that if I just want to have sex we can just do that and we don't have to keep callin' each other. I thought it was a trap though or a test so i said, no, I really wanna talk to you. Then she was like, if you wanna talk to other girls do what you do and i'll do what I do. After her saying that she thinks all i want to do is have sex i was like, well if that's what you think i'm not going to initiate sex anymore
Anyway, 3 days later I invite her to go out with me to a club. She's down at first, so she ends up callin' me around 6 that night and i tell her that I don't think im gonna go out because my friend wasn't down anymore, anyway, she ends up ending the convo. saying that she's gonna call me back when she gets done smoking but she didn't end up calling me back until 11:30 that night asking me if I was going out or not.
I actually did end up going out that night, so I end up seeing her in the club. and she's with this friend that seemed like she was mad cockblocking for some reason. Anyway, HB9 says come find me later so we can dance. So I end up finding her like 15 minutes later to dance with her. I try dancing with her and it's like she don't even wanna dance with me, she's mostly dancin' with her girlfriend. So anyway, she ends up leaning over to her girlfriend and saying that she wants to dance with her friend.
I thought this was me
Anyway, she ends up turning around and walking right past me to her guy friend that's SITTING DOWN on a chair. She didn't even acknowledge me. I was like fuck that shyt and just left.
Anyway, she never hit me up that night, and i was mad for the rest of the night cuz I just got majorly played.
So anyway, I go to work the next day and I sit in a isle that I don't usually sit in(usually me and her sit in the middle isle). So she comes up to me and asks if she can sit with me, i'm like sure.
Then she has the nerve to ask where I went last night, she said I just disappeared. So, I told her that I went to go meet up with someone that actually wanted to chill with me. She was like what do you mean, and I kinda shrugged it off.
Anyway, I ended up leaving that day without saying bye to her. Then the day after that, I sat in an oppisite row again, we talked n stuff, but I ended up leaving while she was on break without saying by again. The day after that, all we say is hi to each other at work and she waved at me when she left.
The day after, she came in the morning and we made eye contact and started talkin' a lil bit. I asked her what she was doing after work, she asked me, she said she was going to some bbq, but b4 I left she said to call her. I was like ok.
So, i end up calling her later that day, it was on cinco de mayo, and I ask her what she's doing, we talk for a lil bit and she asks me why i was being so shady at work. I was like really? C'mon now, you know what you did... U straight played me at the club the other night. She was like what are you talking about, so I told her what she did, then she said she was on her way to the BBQ but she wasn't going to be there long so she said we should chill. Anyway, she ended the convo saying that she had to talk to her mom real quick but that she was going to call me right back.
She never called me back
I know these are signs of ONEITIS but that's not what this is, because even when I was talking to this HB9 I was getting head from another chick and smashing another one.
Even though, i'm getting other things, I still CARE that she's not on my dick like she used to be. It's weird cuz I don't wanna wife this girl up, i'm just mostly sad about losing the power I had. After close inspection, i've come to find that the only girls I get feelings for are ones that give me LOTS of Power and then TAKE it away.
I didn't realize that this is what my problem was until just recently. It's the power I miss, not the girl. What do I do? I don't wanna be like this.
Is there anyway to save the situation to make her JUST a FBUDDY? Or should I just take the L, learn not to abuse the power given to me, and move on to the next?