Hey there dudes and dudettes
I want to give you guys a little bit of background about myself. If you don't want to read all of it just read the bottom of this post.
Growing up I was a shy little kid that was loved enormously by my family and had plenty of friends at school. I remember from being a kid other kids would often ask me if I was feeling sick because I looked so pale.
Things changed when I hit puberty and went to high school. I was still really shy and was suddenly surrounded by people I didn't knew. I got bullied really fast. One of the things I got bullied about was my extremely pale skin. I sometimes caught people talking about me when I walked by. "OMG that guy's so pale!"
Needless to say, my self esteem was unexistant and so was my succes with women (being a nerd obviously didn't help).
Things started to change in college. My self esteem improved and I actually was part of the group and I didn't get bullied. My self esteem was still low however and I still couldn't get a woman.
Unfortunately I quit college after a year because it wasn't my thing. I was going to study something else and I was really scared about my new class. However, during the summer of that year I went on a holiday with some friends and I got quite a tan. When I got back home I got compliments about my looks everuwhere! Less than a week after I went out for some drinks with a guy I know. The day after he texts me one of his female friends found me really handsome and wanted to hang out.
WOW! A girl thought I was good looking? And all that because I got a tan... (I still screwed up because of lack of experience and self esteem issues, but that's not really the point).
Anyway, that was 5 years ago. I started tanning once a week from then (15 minutes in the first weeks, nowadays it's 10. I'm not extremely tanned by any means but it's more than enough to get rid of my paleness). I've had my share of success with women and I am now known as a handsome man. Something I would have never believed 5 years ago. So far so good.
A few weeks ago I noticed a black spot on my hands. My doctor discovered another one and I had both of them removed. I had a very early stage of melanoma... My world crashed and I haven't visited a tanning salon ever since. Ofcourse, I'm looking really pale again. And people have noticed it. I feel really, really bad right now. It's like the confidence I've built up over the years had gone down the gutter
So I've been thinking about applying self tanners. I never used it before because I thought it was gay and a girl wouldn't stay with me if she knwed I was using a self tanner every week. But I now realise that I prefer some people calling it gay and actually have a healthy looking skin over constant remarks about my pale sking.
So in short, to end this post, does anyone have any experience with applying a self tanner? How should I use it? What product should I use and how often?
I'm squite scared about getting a fake orange tan, tains, etc. (As you can tell I still have quite some self esteem issues!)
I assume you've had experience with self tanning? Any other tips?
