Hello everyone firstly i would like to apologize for any grammar mistakes i will make while telling my story english is my second language so bear with me
As the subject says i am 26 years old guy no experience picking up girls the root of my problem comes from when i was a child a lived a traumatic experience(not sexual abuse) with my father and kept all that anger and frustration inside me never told anybody bout my issues instead i lost complete confidence on myself and i started to feel everybody will harm me the way my dad did confined in my believes years passed went to high school didnt have friends always alone but believe it or not never was bullied at school because of that anyhow i finished high school back home took 2 years off moved to Canada i went to esl clases couldnt stay in school cause i wasnt able to survive on the newspaper delivery part time job so quit and went for a full time at that job i met a guy who later become my first friend in years he was in the "game" of picking up girl wasnt big deal for him(black guy/canadian) i came out a couple of times with me at the bar he was always hit on and me ladies didnt even gave a "fuck off"
every time i tough bout approaching a lady all this feelings frustration and fear came up but that guy took the girls home did threways and some other weird fun things i have never experience after few years he settle down with a gal and his not in the scene no more and now i want to make out for those years i didnt do nothing i have been reading different books of alpha male stuff but still cant seem to understand the steps and the way of womens thinking like for example what would be the best way to approach the lady at bar and how to compliment her without sounding like a regular compliment and in my case english my second language what would happend if during a conversation i dont understand something will that kill all i did and she would give me her back and walkaway?? i am desperated wanna live my life dont wanna end up alone or worst case with a whore who has lots of cockmiles and is looking for a provider i wanna be able to know women taste them and then with knowledge deciede if i want a relationship or not thanks to everybodd y and look forward to your answer and suggestions