First time poster. Looking for advice, figured this forum could be a good place.
I just typed out a really long detailed story, but don't want to bore everyone here, especially on my first post.
Not trying to seem like a hot shot, but I am a good looking guy who has never had a problem picking up women.
I am 33 years old, and I basically just have lots of meaningless sex with lots of women, and there's not much more to it. Haven't had a serious girlfriend in many years. I like to say that I just haven't met anyone that I want to be with, but there's probably something more to it, lol who knows.
I have basically been ok with this, until recently. Been finding it very unfullfilling. Guess I'm just getting older.
I recently met a 22 year old girl who I have completely fallen for. Beautiful, smart, all around good person.
The past few weeks we have been texting non stop, lot of flirting, and slept together a few times. Honestly, it's been amazing.
She is now in the middle of studying for exams. She is in a very demanding program, and she basically warned me that she is going to be very focused on studying.
So last week I barely heard from her. I understand that her priority is her work, and not me... which is fine... we aren't official at all.
I guess my insecurities got the better of me and I called her out a few times on being cold. She explained again how busy she is with school, and I said I understand. Few days later I fuckin did it again. Idiot
So what went from us being really all over each other, we're basically not talking anymore. She still has another week of exams, so I'm not expecting to hear from her this week, but I don't think the exams are really the reason. Think I fucked this one up.
I can't get her out of my mind, and don't know how to handle this one. I really haven't experienced something like this in many years. She really got me here. It's come to a point where just looking at her instagram pics is pissing me off cause I'm aching to be with her again. I went out last night and slept with someone and was thinking of her the whole time. Taking out a different girl tonight, but think it will be the same deal.
Half of me thinks that I fucked it up, and I should just walk away and leave it alone. But I really do want to get this girl to be crazy about me again, like she was when we first started hanging out. She has witnessed my slight insecurity bout and this most likely have turned her off...
I'm going to stop texting her cause don't want to come across as insane! But I really do want to fix this.
Hope this came across as somewhat coherent, lol. Any advice would be appreciated.
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