I'm a fucking wussy, my frds created many chances for me and her yesterday but I didn't grasp on to it.( eating lunch side by side) I'm a wussy, I didn't talk much to her yesterday. I'm a wussy, I didnt hug her today when she won the basketball game, all I did was touch her arm and said "good job". I'm a hopeless wussy, I'm 17 and I lack self confidence. Everytime when I prepare myself to be confident, my beta self comes out and I chicken out. I'm a fucking wussy, I am scared WHEN I see her wif her female frds. I am a fucking wussy, I dont get much attention from her than my beta friends. I cried myself back to home thinking HOW PATHETIC I AM, UNABLE TO TRANSMIT MY PASSION TO HER THRU A HUG.( Altho she has a crush which is 90% not me) I was all excited this morning since I had a second chance, but I blew it. I DON'T WANT TO BE THE FUCKING GOOD GUY WHO CARES SO MUCH ABOUT A GIRL AND GET NOTHING IN RETURN BUT MY HEART BROKEN . I WANT TO BE THE FUCKING ALPHA MALE WHO PROTECTS HER AND SUPPORT HER. i DON'T WANT TO BE THE NICE GUY WHO ONLY KNOWS HOW TO CRY IN THE STREETS.( i literaly cried in the streets today)
I really want to be her future boyfriend, the guy who pleasures her, protects her, cares about her and love her. I want to be the guy she is proud of.
Is there any way for me to grow some balls , once and for all?
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Yeah it's hard to talk to her when you've over-thought the situation too much, that tends to create awkward silences, try to be spontanious and fearless, if you mess up this way at least you give yourself something to learn from, if you dont try at all you make no progress whatsoever, becoming a man aint easy if you're so used to your comfort zones but years from now you'll look back on all the mistakes and goofs you've made and have a laugh about them, dont be afraid to screw up dude, in fact, it's better to try and fail than not try at all.