They do exist. But are rare and you don't need to worry about them.
The last one you described about drinks etc. however, was not one. You are thinking too much. Learn to think less. Just do it. Don't ask me why. You will see for yourself. Less is more. You don't use a full can of deodrant everytime before you go out do you? No. Cos less is more. Anything more than 2 sprays is bad. Less is more. Keep it minimal. From now on, you are a "Minimalistic GOD." Relax yourself. Go get a massage. Feel what it's like to be relaxed and you won't turn back, it's in your human nature not to.
They [group shit tests] exist with AMOGS, females, whoever.
The way past is to 100% not react, not be offended, not start to wonder why they just said what they said, the moment you repeat what they just said in your own mind is the moment you fail.
There is a habit to be formed to not react or become self-conscious (self-conscious is repeating in your own mind what they just said.) I understand you're in a different country so you may feel a small bit alienated from people. Just find a connection. The key to this part is CONNECTION. What interests do you have? Find people who are interested in what you're interested in. Do not find people and then pretend to be interested in what they are. Do not try hard to fit in. Do not say something completely stupid because you're trying too hard to join in on a conversation that you have no interest in the subject matter. DO find people who share what YOU are interested in.
Think of it like one of those attractions at a fairground, the ones where you have a plastic hammer and little heads pop up and you have to bash the heads to keep them down with the hammer. Every time a negative or reactive or self-conscious thought creeps into your mind (even in the SLIGHTEST) then you KILL THAT THOUGHT by bashing it on the head with the plastic hammer. If it creeps up again, bash it again. Until there are no more to bash.
As a double-pronged attack on this predicament you find yourself in, you must also learn to not let other people drain your energy. Have you ever been really energetic and chirpy and then talk to someone for a while and then feel absolutely drained, tired, shut down, and generally negative? What's happening here is you, yes YOU gave your energy away to someone else. You must learn to retain your own energy in all circumstances. Think of a buddhist monk meditating in the center of a very, very large room. He is the only one there. He is at one with himself, peaceful, calm, still, yet very aware and flowing with life on the inside, he is feeling a feeling that he has just bench-pressed the world, and can do it again whenever he chooses. He is the true sense of being, the true sense of being alive.
Now, all of a sudden a fly enters the room. The fly is flying everywhere making a loud buzzing sound (as there is no other sounds it is very loud.) Does this distract the buddha? Does the buddha give away his energy to the fly by being distracted from his own self and sense of being? No. He continues on as he had done, acknowledging the buzzing, and guiding the thought of it in another direction, peacefully aka bashes the head with the plastic hammer, killing that thought.
All of a sudden more flies start coming in, the buddha repeats what he had done, and is in no way affected by them.
Time goes on, the buddha is still meditating, he is still at one with himself, the flies are buzzing around everywhere making such a distracting sound, but he is unaffected.
Time goes on, and the whole room is packed FULL of flies, the buddha remains the same.
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