For the last week I have fought the toughest bout of anxiety I have ever had. It stemmed from a recognition of human mortality. That is, we are all comprised of living tissue and we all must die, as living tissue must. However, though I still feel this churning in my gut, this has lead to revelation of what my life will be about. That is, the synthesis of living tissue and materials such as plastic, metal and perhaps stone. I intend on incorporating this into humans and human-built environments (structures and cities), also, I recognize that the work I will be engaged in (Furthering the survival of the earth and our species) may mean that I attempt to prolong my life past the point of natural death through the grafting of synthetic tissue onto my living self. I am willing to make myself more machine than man if it meant furthering the survival of all. I think this might be necessary, and possible.
That said, I thank you the Seduction Community for inspiring me to think BIG. I cannot say that my goal could get any bigger. I know I have much to offer, and I will succeed thanks to you. About half of my life has been dominated by mental health issues and it has inhibited my personal development. Oh well, some people live in such a way that it is said that they have a death wish. I have the opposite. You have given me hope. Though I remain a virgin, I know that this will change, as all things must. Recognition of human mortality has given me perspective, re-affirmed my faith in God, and further sent me into the present moment (TPoN), it has also given a sense of predestination, that I am here to further the survival of the species with which we belong. This place, Neil Strauss, and the Community as a whole have given me access to the personal tools I will need as I bring others along with me in pursuit of this. Eventually my body will be clear of this mental health disease, and I will be free to live and work without fear. Know that you have all have helped me with this. Again, thank you.