HS starts in september. I always want to change for the better, you know, I wanna hear "wow, he changed so much" .Last summer I started lifting, which helped me a lot. More confidence, I learned how to dress,and all that shit. But I feel like it's not enough .. how could I improve my personality? I'm afraid that I won't find so many things to talk about when I'm with a girl. I don't like talking stuff just to fill up the conversation .

Sometimes I make a fool out of myself just for the laughs(I'm doing this when I'm with my friends). I don't wanna be that guy, but it's hard to change with all your old friends around you. I wanna be that interesting,manly or how some people would call it, alpha(cliche much but w/e) guy who doesn't have to smile all the time to be 'ok', the real life Bruce Wayne, Patrick Bateman, Don Draper, you got the point .

thanks.